An honest smile is all I need

Few more days leh.....

2010-06-18T15:00:00.002+08:00

Waliao....Left a few more days until holidays end. When holidays started, i thought 'ah...2 weeks eh, alot time. Can do alot things.' And now, 'Waliao ah! So fast de, i just eat sleep and play nia leh!!'

See, humans have a tendency to change very fast. Yeah, me for one. I think is not that it's not enough, it's just that i always sleep....Ya lor, i think i sleep alot, but hor, i still feel sleepy one wor. Dono why leh.....Samo nowadays sleep that time, dono y middle of the night will wake up one....Siao liao....Samo suddenly wake up like, 'blink, blink.....y so energetic one?' wth lar....

Borrowed story books from heizen wor, but my own one also haven finish ah~~ How!??! Samo gt the homework.......I forgot about many homework, and when holiday that time i thought no homeowork this holiday....Den dono y suddenly the homework all resurfaced on the 2nd week of holiday...... WTH, the homework trick me leh walao!!

So to say, i still need to do my homework, if nt i go to school really dead. Haiz.....

=Cold~~~~=

= What to say? =

2010-04-25T21:02:00.002+08:00

Wah~~ Really got muhroom liao eh.......*plucking off mushrooms* And gt mold too......lol

Really pity my blog now.....So empty, plus so outdated. Exactly like me. Hehehehe..... Very suit the personality, super slow and outdated. But anyway, really nothing to blog, if wanna blog sure talk about those stress and stuff. Don't wanna make my blog filled with depressing stuff, no never really update.

So, feeling nothing now really. Just feel like bathing and wanna go to sleep. *My bed!! My flower pillows, xD!! And my ABC bolster!!* but now is like, 9 pm. Gonna get a cold now if i bathe now, coz i'm lazy to use the heater. There is some complication with my heater that makes my life harder. Maybe is not that late coz sometimes i bathe at 10 or 11. So no prob, just finding excuses lol. Dun worry i gonna bathe later.......................

Seriously........everytime i start a new paragraph, i'm blank again. Somehow or rather, i cant express myself that well compared to before, in writing i mean. But maybe better in actions and words now. I wonder if it's good or bad..........People change in time is true?!?!? haha..........

Ok, until here.........I promised myself not to write anything depressing in this post.......

= Bubi? hahahahahaha =

= Back to school...........=

2010-01-05T15:38:00.002+08:00

First of all, Happy New Year to all!! Eventhough it's abit to late i guess it's better than none. Our holiday went by so fast and the time to go back to school arrived again. This year i thought it wont be as stressful as last year, but i guess i'm wrong. It is VERY stressful as well. Maybe not stressful but headache. With all those new subjects and the teachers. Those teachers as VERY VERY weird. At least in my own interpretation. So far, i think only attended um....4-6 subjects maybe. All of the teachers are definitely not to my satisfaction. It's true that every teacher has their own style to teach but i think we deserve some respect too. In order for someone to be respected, they must respect too. Maybe they do respect us but, i just don't know anything anymore.

Anyway, why did i need to be biology's AJK!!! Gosh~~ I guess it's something i need to get over. I told myself to be optimistic and get over it but, it's not that easy. Plus, no teacher would be able to cater to all students, not with so many students in one class. I really really want to change schools but undoubtedly this school is the best choice because of the location. Aish..........Whatever....No use sulking if there is nothing i could do about it.

Tomorrow have to hear speeches again~~~ Can't they just throw us into the classroom give us some books and start studying instead? Aren't they just wasting our time? What really amused me is that last year they really gave us lots of pressure, saying that PMR is REALLY important. So, what makes me want to laugh is that now when we are in Form 4 they said that PMR results is of no importance and a few teachers said that. It really irked me. At least they could phrase it in a better way. Adults are such hypocrites. Maybe not adults, humans in general.

Last year i was totally in tremendous stress. By how the things look now, i think i wont be able to cope with next year. Gah!!!!!!!

= RU? =

= Santa Claus is coming to town~~ =

2009-12-25T09:18:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!!!

Have a great christmas everyone!!!

I need to get my hands on some turkey. I've never had turkey before *sigh*.

= All i want for christmas is you~~ =

= Forensic Unit =

2009-11-11T15:29:00.002+08:00

Ok, so on Monday er, quite a few person from our class visited the Forensic Unit at HKL. Er, actually i wasnt suppose to go if it was not for a few absent participants. Well, it's ok coz i wanted to go, that was actually the purpose i went to school that day coz i'm pretty sure there will be vacancy. Er, yea so no one was left behind. I think the whole form 3 that attend school that day went, or mayb not. I'm not that sure. So anyway, we walked there.

I actually didnt expect that it was so far. I thought the HKL was big that's why we would be able to reach there fast. At least, in the compound. Luckily that the Forensic Unit wasnt that far. Now i remember I.P.F.N (apparently known as I-Pay-For-Nothing, courtesy of CY). Ok, so when we went it the first thing we saw. I was already sweating. Erm, apparently we saw a coffin in a room. I' not sure what it's called. I'm pretty sure there was a name for it. Anyway, i wasnt feeling that well already when i saw the coffin. I dont like seeing coffins.

We waited in front of the counter for at least 30 minutes i think. We were as usual being noisy, tsk tsk. Hmm, then we finally went in a room. I think it's a meeting room. There we learn a thing or two about forensic. Haiz need 17 years to become a forensic scientists. Then we were shown pictures of...........dead bodies~ That was really really creepy~ Well, actually i didnt want to see after a few pictures as is was er, scary i think. But, since i'm a normal human, naturally i'm curious so i was like watching horror movie. I used my bag as a pillow haha. Hmm, but i think it was actually good that we saw those pictures as it acted like a preparation for watching the real live post-mortem on CCTV. So, when i actually watched the post-mortem i wasnt feeling anything anymore.

Then, after watching a person cut opened, the brain and the chest part, we went to the place where they kept dead bodies. The freezer room. When we entered, there wasnt such a strong smell but it smelled worst after we were in there long. We were supposed to get use to the smell if we stay in there long but we didnt. Anyway when the guy who brought us around open the freezer everyone was taken aback. Well, it was actually empty. Lucky me that i was standing behind. Anyway, we went out after that. Guess what, we went out thru the room where i first saw the coffin. I didnt really realise until i went out. So, where did the coffin go??

Then we went back to school. Nobody wanted to stay there any longer. I actually used the sanitizer twice. Haish. When i went home i went straight to the bathroom. I was sterilizing myself except that i didnt use hot water.

Anyway if asked whether i enjoyed myself, on that day i would say that i regret for wanting to go, but now i think it's a good experience. That day i was like wasnt feeling well the whole day. Maybe i'm paranoid, maybe it was just bcoz i didnt get enough sleep the night before that i dont feel well. I was kinda dizzy lol. Anyway i was hungry the whole day contrasting to CY who cant eat haha.

Then today i went to school too. I think i'm very hard working bocz it's the last week a school. I'm not really feeling anything too eventho holiday is approaching. Maybe it's bcoz that after PMR it's already like holiday haha. Haiz i'm becoming more and more feelingless~~~ And my temper is becoming really bad liao. Especially when i'm doing stock checking at koperasi. I'm really really annoyed to bits. They made us to so many times that i feel like going nuts haiz. I snapped so many times that i lost count *sigh* Sorry to bao2 and CY T_T. Thx for withstanding my temper T_T.

Maybe i will go the whole week, hopefully.

= Dori, dori, dori =

= Almost end of the Year =

2009-11-05T16:45:00.002+08:00

Gah, the year of 2009 is coming to an end around 2 more month. Kinda feel like the clock is ticking faster and faster. This year is hectic. But around the end of the year everything has calm down. Kinda wasting time. Somehow or rather i dont really want the year to end. *sigh* Too fast lar. But still i kinda think it's inappropriate to say that the year is coming to an end. Bcoz when i haven take PMR exams i keep telling myself that 2 months is a long time. Anyway i'll look forward to 2010.

I went to school today and the 'sulaman' (What is it called in English?) stitching? lol. The stitching is fun. Too bad i don't have much patience to finish it. Moreover, when i wanted to do i lost my needle. I think i could do it if i'm given more time. Still, it's a good experience. I'm not going to attend school tomorrow but i'm don't really mind anymore whether i attend or not. It's all the same doesn't make that much of a difference. Lol i was wondering how come the 'english' word was underlined. It was supposed to have caps for the first alphabet.

I'm thinking whether to attend on monday >< . Maybe i should. Most of the form 3's are going to HKL for the forensic activity. I want to go too but my parents don't let me to go to a hospital ==. *sigh* Anything lar, later faint liao i oso dono how. But should be okay cause it's a hospital afterall. I totally love my internet here ^^. It's so fast~~ Well, for now i guess. My computer's space is getting full~~~

On tuesday oso, should i go? I don't really want to go but i should go support2 them abit. In the meantime steal some food hohoho. Swt, guess it's not my internet is fast. It's just the download provider. Whatever. I need some sleep.

= Itchy~~ =

= Ranting =

2009-10-19T14:43:00.003+08:00

Aish, i have so much to say, so much to complain, so much to rant about. But i just cant seem to remember all of it. I'm too forgetful!! So to say, i think i'd rather go to school than to stay at home. Well, only if i dont need to study and do things. Yes, just laze around and read some storybooks. Why? becoz i dun quite like what is happening in my home. Havoc it seems. Or mayb it's just me thinking too much. But, i'd still say it one more time i dun prefer being at home besides having my computer with me. The only thing that makes me like being at home is my computer along with my internet. Well, sometimes other things is enjoyable as well but it's just.......erm, distant? Ah, maybe it's my far away personality? I dont knw. I think the age gap matters as well.

Eh, wateva it is. I'm still happy having my com hohoho. I'm changing my blog to private maybe a few days later. This works as a notice. Yeah, gonna receive my invitation soon hohoho. Well, all the e-mail in my msn would get it. Would it work like this? Not quite sure.

=Sign off~~ =

= So yeah, outdated post =

2009-10-14T10:01:00.002+08:00

Aish, eventho i reached home earlier yesterday i didnt post a new post. Too lazy to do anything yesterday, was sleeping and lazing around the whole day.

So, to say, PMR is over, wth everybody knows that right? Lolz. Yeah, and so the hype is less. I felt like an idiot yesterday. I was like smiling and smiling non-stop when i was answering the KH paper. I wonder if the invigilator saw that. What would she thought? Might have thought that i'm crazy. But, i thought i saw a sign of relieve from the invigilator. They must have been really happy too. Anyway today is supposed to be a schooling day, and yet i'm at home with the air cond on, blogging? But i think it's to be expected right? haha. The teachers already assumed that we wouldn't go to school. I think i need to go tomorrow. I wonder if i can just drop by and send the books back to the SPBT and get out of school. Maybe i should say that i have to visit dono who who and get it over with? Aish, but i wonder what would we do at school when we dont even study. Just loiter around? Did the other non-examination forms took their end-year exams yet anyway.

Aigoo, so the plan to get a hair cut was a major failure. SOBZ. Right, why? Well, a war occurred in my house and the plan is forced to be postponed. *sigh* But, anyway there will always be a second chance. Freako me being so excited to cut my hair just to be disapointed. I already have a feel that something will happen and it woud fail the plan.

So, thats it. I'm looking forward to what will happen in the school. Yeah, most likely be making noises but i hope it would be in the class and not at the hall. Right, i think i'm going to have a nap again. Let's see.........erm, 10.30 am. Well, going back to bed after having breakfast is so me anyway. My hand hurts T_T. Feel like it's coming off. I hit my elbow really hard on a cupboard yesterday. I feel like if i bend abit or touch oso it will fall off.

Ok, off to play games and watch movies!!! Marathon!!

= Follow the beat~ =

= Holiday... =

2009-09-17T15:59:00.002+08:00

Yea, holiday. Thats it, full stop.

Not that excited. But still its ok i guess. Enjoy while i still can after holiday is exam already. Haiz................ So, today did nth at school just talk non-stop. Teachers didnt enter. Got enter but like not there cause not teaching anything. Some teachers like stop entering our class just give some sheets of paper and that's it. I think we only learned maths this whole week. We havent finish PMR also but feels like it cause teacher not entering but leh, the feel is still very pressuring.

Today, everybody is like very excited but still i think the excitement will die out fast. When going home all like nuts nuts abit. Shouting this and that. I think its true that we went nuts from studying so much. Other forms student is like so quiet eventho they are the one who would be enjoying their holiday. But apparently it was the opposite, those exam classes are going nuts. And right now, my computer is not loading the youtube video. *F5!! F5!!* Still i think our class is better off nuts than serious. Its fun and i think our class is special eventho teachers said that we are very noisy. This is our bond. The one and only.

Thinking about 2 days ago i fell down beacuse i stepped on the towel was........funny. But at the same time i thought the pose is quite yeng but stand up only, i was already 'OucH!!! Very pain!!' And shouting non-stop. The situation is like this, got one cockroach on the wall *a small one Lolz*
den we were on a 'Kill-D-Cockroach-Fast' mission. So i was the one 'in charge' of getting the newspaper. On the way back, i stepped on the floor mat, which was a recycled towel, and i went 'piak' Landed on one knee and one palm. The knee luckily my sis massaged? Urut lar. Den only no blue-black, but the 'urut' really hurts. Then the hand like gt twisted ABIT. Kinda pain. Den very scared lor, like afraid cannot take PMR lor, but 2molo morning wake up, no pain SWT.

Yesterday, watched DBSK concert in Tokyo Dome. It was........phenomenal. I was like happy and sad at the same time beacuse i just read the news that say 'DBSK might disband' because the lawsuit is not going that well, both parties arent willing to compromise. The problem is that the happier they look in the concert, the sadder i feel. Haiz. But, i'll still support them and PMR comes first!! DBSK banzai!!!

Den continue, now i'm liking 4minute more and more!! And i like SNSD too~~ In my list i think girl group would be like SNSD, 2ne1 ( i think i will like them more if they do more activities), 4minute. For the time being that will be it. But for boyband, DBSK always rule!!! Muakakaka!!

Ok, i think that makes up for the lack of update ( tho i dont think i'm the only one who is not updating) Still, i'm happy that i can pour out my thoughts. And lastly, i wish everyone Happy Holiday and Happy Raya Celebration!!!

= Dun disturb me, I'm so going to sleep =

= Miss my notebook =

2009-09-10T18:14:00.002+08:00

When i came home i immediately went to sleep without even eating. Well, actually because the food havent reach oso. The school was like empty already by the time i went home eventho only 2.30pm. Hmm....rearranging the music pod is taking up a very long time. The point i put so many songs in my pod is for my own purposes. I'm the one who actually hears it. Without my notebook means no songs lar, so i nid a tool to put all the musics i like so tat even without my notebook i can still hear music. So whenever i open my bolg i can hear the songs i want to hear lor. Anyway i'm still very sleepy haiz. Nid my bed lar!!!

Nowadays very pressure. Go to school oni do exercise non stop lar. Very waste paper. Everyday at least one ring of paper gone. Might as well ask us to buy a book better. Like that really endangering our trees. lol.

Haiz tats all lar. I really miss my notebook!! Wish i would be able to use it soon~~ Most likely tho. I promised to myself i would only use it on weekends. So far so good. I dono how long i can still stop myself from using the com. Wish me luck alright~~

= yeah i like this song so much =

= random =

2009-09-04T18:31:00.002+08:00

geh........Today is very boring. Got loads of homework. If finish the BM but the teacher never mark. I didnt have enough sleep for 2 nights just because of that. Worse, i gotta sacrifice my time for watching variety show. I kinda think i got my priorities wrong for eveything. But i guess that is the right order for ME. I'm suppose to be watching music bank now, but my aunty came and she wanted to watch a chinese drama. So, i'm babbling now. I purposely woke up, more like i forced myself to wake up so that i can watch, but there is always unforseen circumstances. Still the drama looks interesting, but i have to read malay subtitles cause it's in a dialect. A very epic drama.

= wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee *went nuts*=

= FLU! =

2009-08-25T17:08:00.002+08:00

The flu is haunting me again!!! I have a feel that i'm gonna get sick soon. Should i visit the clinic? I think i'm gonna need it soon anyway~~ *sneezing* Ah~~ I actually slept at 11 last night (super early!!) but I just cant fall asleep. Keep rolling here and there. Mayb because i had a nightmare!! Yes a scary dream ==. About being chased by a killer and accidentally killed the person?!?! Impossible!! Cause i cant even drive, how could i kill the person by car??!?!?! Doesnt make sense, but then dreams always doesnt make sense. i dont know why i can remember it so clearly when usually i would forget it right after i woke up. Mayb i thought it was quite interesting? lol. Haiz.........My holiday is so not ok T_T Hope it would grow better cause there is still 5 more days to go? Right i guess. Anyway i hope that my flu will be less troublesome or better, gone.

= Flu, flu, go away~~ =

= stare =

2009-08-18T22:17:00.003+08:00

Right, like the tittle says i'm just staring at the screen. *zing* Kinda brain dead liao lor. Feel like i'm feeling too relaxed lol~~~ Haiz. I think there is too much activity in school and i bet this whole week there will be no studies. What is the point in going really? Actually the reason i'm actually still goin to school is becoz i'm lazy to prepare letter and want my test papers back. But the teachers are to busy preparing those ceremonies.

Its 10 pm now~ Actually not that late for me but kinda wanted to make it sound more dramatic. I guess tomorrow would be a boring day too. Should i bring book? That is the problem actually, if i dont bring later the teacher want to teach den i'm doomed, if i bring then my bag would be way too heavy. What is worse is that the teacher never inform us about anything!! Do they treat us as a part of the school? We have rights!! Student rights!!

Nowadays i just cant control when my mind would drift away~~ Maybe because of lack of sleep. Sometimes just think of useless things. No idea why, but it might be a good idea, can be more imaginative. *I'm starin* Suddenly thought of my poking-screen-animated- avatar. Its too cute but it might crack my computer screen if i keep it that way.

I;m currently looking at winter and waves images. Its very beautiful. I just dont know why, but i do have something towards those white and blue things. Natural scenery are the best. I should really learn photography. During winter, the sceneries are extremely beautiful where houses with the mountains covered with snow towering behind. Truly a mind-blowing sight. Wish i could go somewhr with snow someday but its gonna be real cold~Reflects something but cant really point it out.

Waves~

Ah~ I think i wanna go to bed already. So peaceful in my house. Only me alone still outside and its really windy.

= chill~ =

= Wat? All same =

2009-08-15T14:28:00.002+08:00

Hah~~ Finally can blog. Actually its not that i have no time to blog, its just that i'm too lazy to think and type. Blogging will make me think of dono what kind of things anyway. So, to say i was occupying my time with my newly bought cube =) and also some sleeping, maybe tring to avoid blogging. But it was very long ago, since the last time i blogged. So might as well blog somethings.

Of course, what everyone is talking about, exam. Uh...well, it wasnt all that nice and i think my head is going to burst very soon. Too many exams and too near!! Erm, this exam was quite........ok? Not sure really. The maths was disastrous for paper 1. I felt like i did well in paper 2 but nt really sure, at least i did my best. Next subject would be science, it was......torturing. The paper one was full of mistakes i was kinda sleeping halfway. But luckily i was able to wake up and did another round. Paper 2 was obviously torturing. What is the asbestos?? I read before exam that it was used as firemen's suit but what relation does it have to do with the experiment???? Block the fire? Heck, i dont know what i was doing anyway. Den, BM? Gosh, i didnt expect would have facts essay. I wasnt used to writing facts essay and its going to be disastrous. Hope PMR would have story essay. Paper 1 was disastrous as usual. Ah~~ now i no mood already. But i was really happy when pn teoh told us that our whole class got A for our geography. It was all good. Hope it would be like this for PMR too.

Ok, now enough about exams. There is still KH!!! My KH is.................................Argh!! Phobia liao la. I gotta try whether if i cant score well for KH this time.

I really love my cube!!! Thx to my family members!!! I'm kinda addicted so to say~~ I really dont feel like attending school on tuesday and wednesday. Too many ceremonies. Cant they just let us study? I really want Physical Ed. now. How many weeks we never PJ already? I lost count. Do they understand that we need PJ?

I'm really sleepy~~ I missed my anime last night T_T. All bcoz of i need to go to skool!!! What we did at skool? Ah~ nth. Just talking and cubing. Bored~ but i kinda like the atmosphere. It was all quiet. If each class were to have only that many student it would be totally fun!! like half of the students were absent. Whole school not only our class? Form 6 were like didnt exist. Only one of the form 6 student came i think. Lonely.

Ah~ enough lar i guess. Very long liao. I have nth to say anymore.

= * going to bed, my bed~~~~~~~~~* =

= FREAK!!! =

2009-07-29T15:20:00.003+08:00

Shyt!! Freaking pissed off!! I went home late, i'm hungry, i lost my bottle and i lost my ribbon. Nice combination indeed. Everything just seem to go wrong when i'm angry!! Its just not right!! My botttle !!! I want it back!! I dono what to say already. Its either the bottles have something against me or i just donhav any luck with bottles. I'm fed up already.

= great, just great =

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Finally calmed down. Actually gt alot of things to say but just now just too annoyed so dont have to mood to type. But feeling better now. Well, i think i'm very.........just too.........blur. How could i foget my bottle? *sigh* To be expected tho. Just not meant to be i guess. To say that i really liked that bottle. I mean SUPER-DUPER-ULTRA like the bottle. Anyway what is done, is done.

Die lor, if i ate my lunch at 4, what time am i suppose to have my dinner?!?! Yor..................how leh no need to eat lor.

Words,
A way to communicate,
A way to express,
A way to escape from reality,
A way to understand,
To be simple,
A necessity,
But it really hurts.

Maybe i hurt someone without knowing, i'm so sorry if i did. I know it really hurts. Even if it wasnt meant to be so.

= Whee~ or no whee? =

2009-07-23T15:40:00.003+08:00

Image says it all. Recover soon~~ Hope to see you now!! ^^

Yay~~~ I finally got permission to buy a cube hohoho.......and i can have the original one~ ha~~ *so happy* Now havto see whether i'm lucky enough to be able to walk in a store that sells the cube lol...*eyes glimmering*

I'm actually very happy right now but suddenly the thought of having history exam 2molo made me......*sigh* Anyway i'll havto read the text booK!! Samo nid to read whole book. I wonder i need how long to finish leh? haaaa~~Really wanna call heizen now!!! but i donhav my phone with me and i dono her number T_T *sigh* I'll call her later tonight i hope she haven sleep!! Plus, now is kinda getting-sick-season. Everyone is feeling unwell because of the weather or mayb temperature change. In the morning or night it would be freezing cold and in the evening it would be freakin hot. Gosh~~~ Hope everyone get well soon. Also hope that i will be strong enough to fight away the virus~~

Very sleepy right now. But i need to read....fallin asl.........asleep....*my eyelids~~* Gosh feels so heavy now. *slapx4* still feels sleepy but pain == self inflicted injury~~~ Just now during Physical ED play the volleyball really hurts T_T my hand was all red.. But of coz mine isnt that bad compared to 'orangeologist' one haha.....Plus lucky me didnt get hit by anything. Chee yan was hit by may type of thing. I bet it hurts~~ But still she stand strong!! ho!! but it was kinda fun because this time we had a longer period and we didnt have to do any weird stuff just play what we wanted to play ~~

I cant really understand some people. How they can simply say anything without thinking of other people's feelin. Eventho i admire the person for her abilities and talents, i still cant fully comprehend her actions. To me, if the personality of a person is not admirable, then the impressions fall. Whatever we do, must think of the consequences and the other party's feeling. If it hurts others, why do it? And right, now i feel kinda.....*sigh* I should have apologised. Gosh, how i could i forget something like that, and to think that i worried about it. Sheesh~~~ If it went by too long ago i think i wont be able to apologise. Too awkward. SO how??!! ayo~~~It left a bad impression.

Anyway i'm done for now. Real sleepy.
Hope everyone can get well soon~~

= Vibrato =

= Stand strong =

2009-07-21T15:44:00.002+08:00

Q&A session:

Moody? Not sure
Sad? Quite
Angry? Yes
Depressed? Very
Disappointed? Extremely
Happy? Mixed feelings
Confident? Used to be
Giving up? .......
Why now? What more.....
Falling apart? Losing control
Determination? Used to have
So how now? Ask me not

Q&A session over. Asked and answered.

= next post i think i knw wat i'll do =

= Life and promise part 2=

2009-07-17T16:30:00.003+08:00

Actually i just wanted to improvise but i didnt expect to write so long gosh.......I was writing in my note book and i didnt expect to write till so long ==......Too engrossed. Like Heizen said, it was more like my thoughts rather than a poem. But for it to be my thought it is rather straight forward. Hmm, must learn how to be more......complicated. Too easy to decipher the meaning of my writings. Must practice more in writing liao. There was so many grammar mistakes. *sigh*

Ok, actually i dont really know i was writing this for whom, but i guess there must be someone i'm writing to, but i just dont knw. Yes! and this time i didnt use dictionary thats why the english are simpler. xD Plus its very troublesome to use dictionary while writing it's like.....very disruptive.

Life and Promise (Improvised)

Have a wish,

to prove to the world,

that people with a kind heart still exist,

but, there wasnt such things to begin with.

Wish to get answers to all the questions,

playing in my head, over and over again,

never letting me go,

bit by bit, consuming me,

breaking me into pieces,

problems? pressures?

I'm exasperated!

Let me leave,

wherever it may be,

just,

not here,

not here.

My heart whispers,

If only they understood, if only they cared,

my heart, wouldnt be on this state,

crumbled and shattered in to bits.

I thought,

Would this be possible? Is this ok?

Have i done enough?

Did i hurt someone?

I had enough! I tried my best,

i really tried,

i wanted to believe,

only to fall into despair, lost,

no one to help, no one to care,

all alone.

I knew all along,

life is cruel,

painful.

I wish with all my might, that life,

is simpler, less complicated,

then, my life would less devastating,

only then, it would be bearable.

A promise is made,

promise to not betray,

love, care,

and to be beside and watching over me,

caring,

eternally.

Your promise to me.

My pact to you,

to never let u feel alone,

never to leave you behind,

never to let you down,

protecting,

forever.

This is our promise.

Your existence lightened my life,

i hope to repay your kindness,

to make your life more meaningful,

please give me a chance,

to make your life,

a better one.

I'm going to say that i can continue forever seriously. *sigh*

anyway just a thought. Not that i will read it myself just writing for fun lol.

Yes, i wan a rubik's cube!!! i wan!!! lol. I'm desperate!!!

= rubik's cube ar~~~ =

= Songs =

2009-07-13T16:06:00.005+08:00

So long no blog liao o~ So the point is, i dont really have anything to update really but i just feel like i just got to put something. But now i'm cracking my head what to type? ha~

Well, lets just say that songs are reallyy powerful. I mean powerful in many sense. Someone can express their feelings thru songs. Some songs can be totally meaningless to somebody, just as a form of entertainment while it could be something that is very important for someone. Well, actually what i'm trying to say is........Something can be really unimportant and petty to you but it might be very meaningful to others. 'One man's meat might the other man's poison'? I'm nt sure if its suitable in this context lol...

but anyway.... nth to say anymore..... haha super-short-post....So not me haiz~~

Life and Promise

Want to prove to the world,

to everyone that people with kind heart still exist,

but i knew there wasnt such thing to begin with,

I wish to get the answer to all the questions in my head,

problems, pressured, perplexed!

but i knew it in the beginning that such thing wasnt possible,

If only they understand, if only they care,

i wouldnt be so dazed, i wouldnt be so anguished,

Would it be possible? I try so hard to believe,

but always end up lost, dissapointed,

all alone, no one to care, no one to help,

Life is so cruel, excruciating,

I wish with all my might, that life would be with,

happy and joyful souls,

so that my painful,unbearable life could be lightened up.

I promise that my very existence could bright up our life,

that my promise made you feel loved, cared

You know that someone will always be beside you,

watching you, caring for you,

This is our promise.

Hah~~ dedicated to people who are lost.........Hope this poem could make you feel loved and cared. Wah~~ and i even use a dictionary to write it. Also i'm hearing to emotional songs lol..That is the proof to what i said above. Sons are powerful indeed. Copyright Jenny's poem hahaha......Tho it looks more like a story to me xD...

Ok lor, sayonara.

= Took me 1 hour?!?!?!?!?! =

= Sigh =

2009-07-03T12:49:00.003+08:00

*sigh* Just came back from school. It was weird going to school without wearing a uniform on. It was very troublesome. I have to explain like 5-6 times that i just came to school to pass up my geography folio. Den i nid to tell them y i was absent. Adui~~ I literally walk all over the school from the office till form 1 == It was tiring.

I went into the class and like 2 minutes i'm done? lol Anyway it was very rude of me to just walk in and came back out without social a wile 1st. I'm really sorry but i wasnt in the mood to talk i guess. The flu really got to me == *sigh* thx to bao2 n kai xin 4 tellin me about the sej folio. also, sry to vivien coz i fogot to bring her gsoft pen!! THE FLU!! Pls be gone!! Flu really makes someone sleepy~~ Eventho i woke up at 10 i still feel sleepy now.\

Argh!! y!?!?!?! My geography folio gt wrong again?! WHY!?!?!?!?! I already corrected it so many times!!! Y is it tat i cant get full marks?!?!?!?! TELL ME!!!!!!!!!! I even purposely went to school to pass up?! ARGH!!!!!!!!@#$%^&*

Shyt lar!!

= just great!! =

= Achoo~~ =

2009-07-01T20:33:00.002+08:00

Aish.......Is that a fact that once you have flu, will easily get sleepy? I think so. Coz currently when i'm typing my eyelids are already half-closed. Oh my~ Actually last night got alot of things to post but somehow or rather tonight nothing to type already~ *sigh*

Thx to a certain somebody i think i discovered a great phrase. ' Always do things unexplained, it will cause others to be perplexed' Yay, that is so.......poetic haha. So. anyway, i really wondering what is the difference between friend, best friend, true friend and a normal friend? To me, i guess it's all the same? I really have no idea. Someone answer me?

So next problem is, left 3 months bfor PMR. Worst, next week is Intervensi 3. Oh Gosh. I still havent read anything. Didnt touch my book. I think i should start digging out my books. Went somewhr very deep into.......*think,think,think* no idea whr are my books. *sigh* We'll see how.

Next! Right i remembered wht i wanted to post about last night when i was typing the 3rd paragraph. Yesterday was Hari Koperasi. Iw was fun and.....troublesome at the same time haha. Well, it was fun bcoz many ppl participated and of coz, loads of food and drinks!! Right haha. There were games too , but i took part in the Water War. Which i kinda regretted. lol. Reasons why i was regretting, was bcoz that it was cold, i didnt have a chg of clothes. I should have thought of the consequences. My fault. Then, i didnt have a chg of clothes at my parents workplace too. I was sitting under the air-cond. The result? Flu of coz == But, i guess at the moment i did thought that it was fun. Right during the time when we splashed water around. That was it ONLY. haha. Then, bad enuf playin around with hash browns and the oil, i mean 100 degree burn. lol. Luckily only a few drips. Anyway, it was ok besides from the flu.

Bad news yesterday was the teacher told me that my folio geo was wrong?! Oh gosh. I had enuf of it. What was worst she told me i got 0 points for my graphs?! *sigh* I was like suddenly ran out of mood. I was pretty much sulking and sitting at the corner of the classroom.

2molo gt Physical Ed. but the teacher!! They chged teacher T_T. I want the old teacher back!! Dont feel like doing it. The teacher is scary~~

That's all for it. I cant stand anymore i think i gotta go to bed soon~~~ Around 11? *sigh* Sleepy~~~ I hate flu!! GAH!!!!

= *running nose* =

= Wawiicho~ =

2009-06-25T18:28:00.002+08:00

Wow~ Shud i say today is fun or really bad luck? Hmm, part of it is fun but part of it is really bad luck for me~~ Let's start with bad one first. Firstly, when i wa sitting at dewan for assembly this morning my pinafore got wet. Yes, and very big spot also. I clearly remembered i didnt sat anywhere near the puddle of water. I guess there is only two possibilities that i could get my skirt wet. One was when i was standing up the skirt somehow or rather flap onto the water or the water flowed to wards the area. Ok, that was one. The next one was when i was standing waiting to enter the class in the dewan also. I dropped my geography folio paper and the ink got smudged like it was splashed with octopus juice. At least it's still readable. So, i jhust left it like that and pass up. Next, when i was playing badminton in class, i was picking up the shuttle when i knocked my head on the edge of the papan for those subjects one. It hurts~~ Kinda swollen. I'm so gonna get stupid if i always knock my head. I knocked on the wood twice already this year. Once, was when i was picking up bag after finishing exams ==. Gosh!!

Next, when i was getting out of the car when i reached home, i knocked my mouth!! Ouch! *sigh* I dont wat to talk about it anymore. I hope what people say bad things comes in three is true coz i just experienced 3 of it.

So about the fun stuff is that we had lots of fun during experiment. Yes, in the lab~~ Maybe it's not that fun but very exciting. First, one of the groups burned the mixture too long and the boling tube was on fire! Everyone was shouting and scrambling away but luckily after the sulphur finish burning, the fire stopped. It was good that there were no books on the table, or else it would be very troublesome. Then, another group burned their boling tube too. It had a blue flame. Looks very cool! Next is when we were heating the test tube, the test tube melted, uhh.....maybe nt melted but kinda distorted. Actually 3 groups test tube went out of shape. Then, the last one was a test tube breaking into two pieces. It broke in half! The calcium carbonate poured out lol. So many incidents! First time~~ I bet the teacher wont let us do experiments again! We broke test tube, cause flame and ruckus of course. I guess the reason why the teacher didnt scold us and ask us to pay is because she expected all of those. She did told us that those experiments are very danagerous.

Then, today's extra classes was cancelled. I think it was because the singing competition took the whole dewan causing other clubs no place to assemble for club activities. My fm came to our school but i dont know any of them!! lol. Hmm, then after hearing a while which hurted my ears, i went out of the hall. Then, after a while i got to play badminton!! yay~~~ That was fun~~ I didnt get the chance to play during this week's physical education. hehe so it was fun~~~

That's all i guess. Very long already!! Good Luck reading~~~

=Yay and sob~~ =

= Pics~~ =

2009-06-20T12:52:00.005+08:00

Mirotic Album Version C!! haha i bought myself T_T expensive~~

Muahaha!! Jaejoong oni!! Exclusive!

I admit i dono how to take pictures!!

My finger looks so short~~ The ring from Megan and Chee Yan~~ Thx~

From Elaine. She bought from Malacca!!

From Tze Keei. She wants me to save money xD.

Large Kuma-san~ From Dhuha. Keeping itt on a very high place xD

From Heizen, Yan Ling, Michelle and Vivien. (i'm wearing it now) sry i'm not in th pic bcoz i dono how to take the clothes and me. And also nt with the bear coz my head will be chopped off!!

Here are the pics for the presents. Sorry i know it is very rude to post it up so late. I wanted to post it up yesterday night but.....I am so NOOB i dono how to post alot pics together o_O. Now i'm giving it another try. Thx everyone~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ^^ Right tomorrow is father's day now havto think for my father pulak lol~~

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= Oshashiburi!! =

2009-06-19T14:57:00.002+08:00

So long since i updated. Lol. Sigh to lazy to blog cant be helped ^^ I wanna post picture but that would be later in another post later in the night. Now, i wanna talk about my obsession!! Yes! my obsession. Addicted!! Gosh, samo gotta study. Talk about study the results are so ... haiz. Argh!! the PJK!! Freako!!! Ok. So wat? I read i wanna do better. I ask 'why?'. The only answer is that i didnt did well enough. I say if not because of my PJK so low i might be better in the ranking. But, can i blame on the subject? On anyone? Guess not. It's my fault for nt studying properly, no? xD haha.......Anyway back to the obsession part~~~~

First, we go into korean entertainment industry first kay? haha....
Erm, korean guys: DBSK!! for sure liao lar....and den samo who? SG wannabe....and den no more haha.
Den, Actors: Song seung Hun and Kim Bum
Gals: BOA!! Yea, she is a dancing queen. haha....Like her dancing and she is good looking...and also wonder girls....yea i like the song 'nobody'. Very catchy tune xD
Actress: Gianna Jun(so gonna watch her new movie xD), Kim Ah Joong and......no more~

Thats all for korean i think nt much i knw except for DBSK. Next!!

English ones~~
Singer:
Guys- hmm....guys ar........none~~~~
Gals(alot): Taylor Swift lar.....1st one haha....den, leona lewis like her songs xD....den Colbie Caillat(get the spelling from Heizen!!) Den abit of Demi Lovato, powerful voice....Avril lavigne...Nth to describe....Just like her.... hm....no more? yea i guesssssssssss

Actors:
Guy: erm, nt much lar....i like asians better...My weird taste haha..Hmm, the HSM guy loor Lucas Grabeel? den, the one that Heizen baru recommend one, Chace Crawford (handsome lar)
Gals: Har........*blank* Nicole Kidman, good acting skills, very into her roles....Den, Katherine Heigl (27 Dresses)... Next is Amy Adams really love Enchanted!! Erm, the no more......

Hmm, Japanese~~
Guy: heh~~~ none really i just random hear one usually oso...haha....
Gals: Mika Nakashima( the CY lar make me oso like her haha) the only jap singer i guess....other than that i oso random hear from anime ones that can turn out to be quite nice haha....

Thats all~~~ DONE LIAO!! hahahahaahahahahahahaha...................Gotta go sleep now~~

= DODODODOODOD!! =

= wat? holiday?!! =

2009-05-30T09:16:00.002+08:00

Yay! Holiday already!! and it's 2 weeks long~~~ Yahoo!! So freakin happy and exited. But then i really don knw wat i really wanna do lol.....Anyway today is the first day of my holiday and the first semester ended. Let's see wat happened~~ Actually, cant really remember anything but exams == but of coz there are some happy moments ^_^ Eventho sometimes it's tiring, it could be real fun. Especially if everyone is in it together. Those playful-teasing-laughing-sick == moment eventho sometimes it is nt fun (especially getting sick?) but it's a good experience ^_^

So, lets talk about wat happen the day before holiday started (yesterday,lol) Yesterday was teachers' day and it was one of the best teachers' day i ever attended ^_^ and i never regretted attending to school yesterday lol. First, it started of quite slow but after the students perform, now it's time for teachers to perform!! Erm, actually i cant really remember how many groups of teacher performed. 6 or 7 i think.......yar.... The first group was the best xD!! Cik Faridah with ponytail (buuuuuuuhahahah) so cute xD!! and the dance was the most energetic out of all performance........If i want to say more sure gt alot but then i very lazy wanna type lol.....but then, it ended quite abruptly tho lol.....Den, we got free muffins and delite ^_^ quite ok i guess lol....

and den, my presents!! yea, i gt a super-large bear (why i think it's large bcoz i don have on as large and i really wanted abig bear xD samo its white!!) , from dhuha xD (THX!! I'll remember ur bday xD) and then, i gt a jungle ape t-shirt(it's black and white xD fav colour!! and the graphics printed on it is real cool xD) and 2 dbsk pictures from the same person too!! it's from heizen, vivien, yan ling and michelle!! (THX!! love the presents xD i'll wear it on my bday lol)

so, tats pretty much it ^_^ it was fun~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~( it can be described by one word!!)

haha~~~~~~~

= Yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=

= Wacko~~~ =

2009-05-29T00:06:00.002+08:00

yea yea.....kinda wacko to post so freakin late at nite.....actually i wan to sleep already but i thought since my com is on, why not check out some blogs and den sambil sambil oso post blog lor haha....

yea on wednesday my exam ended, mid term.... very happy coz it was really strenous......and it was bad for my health!! >=( lol........but anyway, i'm glad it ended without a scene tat is.......but den mayb waiting for results are more........stressful i guess....anyhow nt tat i can force the teachers to mark faster just because i wan the paper.....they nid rest too and 2molo is teachers' day, actually ended already but our school celebrate it late izzit? nt quite sure, very out-dated person, cant be helped really.........not tat i hear wat the teachers announce early in the morning, i'm way to blur for it...... eventho there is holiday, kinda feel like this holiday wouldnt be as fun as how it used to be, mayb it would, who knows...........but ont hing i knw for sure == too much homework!!!! lets list it out, shall we?:

BM: yea, its practically the whole hotspot? i guess the teacher knws tat our bm grammar aint tat gud
BI: hmm, this teacher very lenient actually, only gave us one set of past PMR questions
GEO: tis teacher also very good, 2 pieces of exercise paper and some notes to copy
SEJ: right, quite some amount here actually.......2 sets of PMR questions, notes to finish (the notes i very ketinggalan zaman i think) and also whole book of saya gemilang!! O_O
MATH: erm, this teacher also still ok 2 sets of PMR questions.........
brain dead! cant think of any already............hmm *thinking hard* *gave up, take out book* right, so tat was it....my brain isnt dead afterall ==

alright, the looks aint tat much but when we actually does it, is wat matters the most......anyway i wonder if i should play first or do last minute work? but i guess i'll end up doing last minute work anyway == got used to my style lol..........

today i finished reading a storybook, yea finished reading......polishing back my reading skills actually.......found out tat my english is going down the drain.......yea i think...........*sigh* the book i read was 'For One More Day' by Mitch Albom which is also the author of 'Five People You Meet In Heaven' as well as 'Tuesdays With Morrie' all of the book by the same author and the ones i mentioned, i read it before and i was amazed by he unique style of narrating and the details.....i really like 'For One More Day' i find it very meaningful..........and it was touching~~~~~ it kept me reading and i didnt even wanted to let go of it to do my sejarah folio which led me too have panda eyes soon.........still, it was very good............... i really like Mitch Albom i'm really anticipating his next masterpiece!

i think this is the first storybook i actually finished reading this year == pathetic, i knw........*sigh* gotta at least finish 2 storybooks this holiday~~~~~ i can do it!!

right, gotta go to sleep~~~ i realized i posted for about.......20 minutes? gosh, too long........too boring!!

= Hualalalala~~~ =

= awful night~~ =

2009-05-23T15:00:00.002+08:00

yesterday night was......disastrous!! i went to bed about 12.....and i slept at 2 something (or mayb one something,nt sure) yesterday night i had a major headache == my head was like gonna burst anytime! and it hurts T_T............i was freaking restless worrying about my headache......and kinda too excited for no reason........just cant stop moving! i was rolling around my bed here and there waking up and walking around as well == i was suprised tat my sister didnt wake up eventho i was rolling here and there often making the bed shake??(wat suitable word?) o_O

next, my finger hurts!! the skin is coming off near the nail there!! hope my nail wont fall off....it hurts when i write!! i was really lucky that on friday wasnt essays exam or else i'm dead!!

ok thats all for my ranting! and i kinda feel like i wanna go to sleep eventho i woke up late around 11? lol....................................................and i don feel like studying!!!! help!!!%^!*!*!(!&%! tat is a bad symptom!! lazy-ness haha!!................................................

= boohooo!! =

= Woah~ woah~~ na,na,na,na! =

2009-05-22T16:19:00.002+08:00

quite happy coz 3 days of exam passed!! but those 4 most important subjects in PMR is still awaiting me ==....... monday gt.....erm, maths and seni? i think so.........lazy wanna go check my timetable....den monday maths == eventho i think my maths did improve ABIT....but still i guess gt abit of phobia maths i guess......my maths is kinda.....my brain cant process the questions == lucky that there are stuff such as CALCULATOR! if this thing doesnt exist i'm so doomed.....but i kinda like construction part those drawing ones.....i like those.....

next, is seni....since is theory.......i'm fine with it but i never really gotten A in seni before in secondary school i mean.....but at least this time is seni halus...but i still nid to see at pictures to draw well.....nt imaginative T_T.....well, shud be glad that it's nt painting!

tuesday- erm, geo and science>>>>>>swt swt both nid to read lots of textbook == i mean lots of pages.....how could they put 2 important subjects together???? hmm........science form 3 is kinda @_@ nid to memorize lots of scientific names...... guess my science is all about memorising afterall.....next is geo...................................this is...........................................one of the.........................hardest subject ==.....................oh my, and this alot pressure from the teacher......this havto memorise alot too!! luckily that moral is over == or else moral definisi + geo= memory overload! glad that sej is over too.........tat means i havto prepare space for geo ==

last day!!(means on next wed)- is the kh~~~ and seni drawing..........seni drawing is still ok and usually they like to end with seni hmmm........guess it is quite nice to end with seni can release stress really........let's talk about kh == kh for me is.........memorising as well == lol how come so many subjects is memorising?! kh is still ok just average.........but then quite alot to read oso and i especially dun quite like to read the jahitan part == dono why i just doesnt have any interest in it but i like do the practical ones xD.......the machine is fun~~~~

oh well, the greatest thing is that right after exam we hav 2 weeks long holiday~~~ tat time hohohohoho who knws how long i will be in front of my computer.........but right before having a nice holiday, we havto finish our sej folio!!! haiz.......at least she never ask us to bind! if including binding i bet 3 days is nt enuf.....its actually 2 days i think......plus nid to type that practically means burn midnight oil again for me @_@.............i'm so gonna have panda eyes......talk about panda eyes i'm so sleepy now ==

reason i'm sleepy:

because i slept at 1 o clock last night coz i havto practically finish off 2 sejarah textbooks == and also memorise the moral definisi which is really pointless coz the exam didnt ask for it....and the teacher didnt tell us!! plus........i didnt sleep during exam i mean when i finish answering the paper....well i did doze off abit after finishing my moral paper.....coz moral paper is 2 hours == way too long and the teacher dont let us read for the next subject.....i nid to force myself to drink water to nt fall asleep which made me went to toilet many times.....nt only today but the last 2 days.....== so i'm actually planning to have a good nap (for around 3 hours-what i usually do, kind of a daily routine xD) but then, after finishing off the sejarah, i kinda nt tat sleepy but energetic!! of coz energetic, bcoz i have my com xD!!!

chg of mind......guess i;m goin to sleep afterall but for only 2 hours hohohohohohohoho!!!!!!!! goodbye!!

= geh, am i tad bit hungry now? =

= T_T =

2009-05-15T13:44:00.002+08:00

haiz........my bottle broke.....T_T so sad....i was only able to use for.....erm, 5 days....lifespan of my bottle....was it meant to break? sigh.......samo the water was like pouring out .....pitiful sight....it wasnt me who broke the bottle.....i let her hold my bottle....den i came out of the koperasi walking towards the canteen i heard 'buiish' den i thought, wth....i knew it was them but i didnt expect my bottle to be the one that fell on the floor.....walk near only to see its mine T_T.......9 ringgit so, i guess around 2 ringgit a day.....a very expensive bottle indeed.....i wanna ask her to pay me back but i was the one who asked her to hold.....so shud i have asked her to pay? *sigh* at least she bought me back a mineral water.....ok i guess.....so its ok coz i cant really blame her but still abit angry =_= .........oh well i'll get over it soon.....den went in the library saw a same bottle o_O haha..... nostalgic....................................................................

= sigh =

nice experience~~~

2009-05-09T00:15:00.002+08:00

hmm.....i dono wen but this week == short term memory loss seriously....well i remember incidents but nt days? o_O weird......anyway i think is thursday means yesterday ooo....wait, now 12 already so i guess is 2 days ago.....yea, the extra class subject is geography.....and the teacher is my ex form 1 teacher.....she teaches well but her tone is the problem.....lol....but anyway it was ok...me and 2 other frens entered late coz we know the suppose-to-be-teaching-us-teacher, didnt come so the teacher is just replacing her class....so we thought no teacher and we were like loitering around in the koperasi haha.....but it was fun and finally when we finally decided to check out wat is happening in the class, (thought it was a havoc) but suprisingly it was all quiet.......we were like 'wha..............' den i became a detective xD no wat i meant was i peeked inside and kinda communicating with one of my frens in the class.....haha.....we didnt want to enter BUT a senior assistant teacher (lol sounds kinda weird anyway) ya was like scolding students tat were walking around and nt attending their classes or curriculum activities.....and of course we were ONE of those haha......so we were like sneaking around trying to avoid her......and finally cant stand it i just entered the class......it was very .....thrilling xD..... in the end, i attended the class still xD (good student muahaha)

next, when i got home.....i went to the toilet and changed my clothes......what happen was, the door cant be opened ==.....yea the knob was lik whole thing came off? and i cant open the door......worst, the toilet only have very little air ventilation.....kinda suffocating haha.....lluckily someone is outside, so i asked the person to get me a screwdriver and i'll open the door (without breaking it of course) and i was like 'open lar, open lar' haiz.....den when i was able to open, the screwdriver scratch my hand == was it bad luck or wat? no i guess it was fun, a good experience.....

yea, tats all and i gotta go to bed now....or else tomorrow i would be in a sleeepy-bad-lifeless mode haha.....i practically do tat everyday......

=gotta go to bed!!=

= dadadadada~~~ =

2009-05-05T15:55:00.002+08:00

weee~~~ finished my geog folio and passed it up ^^ so happy such a relief~~~ but still have history,sivik and kh as well as moral? lol at least one of it is done~~

yesterday i went to muzium negara~~ yay~~ i finally got to go once muahaha.....coz i really never went before.....so noob looks like someone who came out from jungle haha......i knw i knw and i never went to zoo as well!! went will i be able to go? lol..........well at the muzium it was quite fun really.....kinda.......quite modern over there i mean the technology eventho it's suppose to be a place whr ancient stuffs are kept....hmm.....i kinda liked the galleries....really lotsa info, if i were to read everything i think i would need the whole day haha.....afterthat we went to dataran merdeka for a photo session.....we took the Bangunan Sultan Abdul Samad as our background haha.....well u knw they went frenzy with the photo session....den a few foreigner from Thailand grabbed some of ma classmates to take photo wif them but i was able to sneak away muahahaha.......i pretended that i was taking photo of the sceneries....so sneeky peeky haha.....but it was ok i don really like to be taken .....but i like to take photos..... den we went back to skool, eventho it was for the folio, but i guess it was ok....it seems really like a day trip hehehe......

then, today was really bored~~~it was eventless.......more like we didnt study history coz the teacher was taking another group to the museum.....so we were quite happy coz we could talk non-stop but she left us work ==...........but it was still ok coz the sivik teacher didnt come which means no nid to copy stuffs haha......and so........samo gt bc/bt which means no study for me and the moral teacher didnt enter which was quite a relief coz she would start talking about the laporan or moral folio which really really makes me headache....haiz.......so anyway it wasnt much.....but kinda fun in some way i guess.....

and den............................................................................................ya, i really like dbsk now~~~ i'm obsessed literally coz everytime i on my com i would check out about them and download pics and wateva but wat i'm tryin to say is i really like them tat it's hard to convey in words!! (i'm biased tho haha...........) anyway i really love them.....but i wish i could still concentrate on my studies tho.....

i'm really sleeeeeeeeeeeeepy now......wat to do slept late last nite, but i feel like eventho i slept early it would still be insufficient so y sleep early? but bcoz of the spreading flu, i really gotta take care of my health......yea should eat more hahahahahahaha...................and of coz exercise too....talk about exercise tomorrow we have our SEGAK thingy which is definitely nt fun coz i just wanna play play play!!! hohoho........wish it would be cancelled like last week muahahahaha.......

ok, i should take my leave now...this post is really long makes up for the past few weeks without post....read and enjoy but i think it wasnt tat long anyway coz eventho i wanted to post something, there was nothing i could talk about.....hmmm except for the obsession i have for TVXQ!!!! yea !~~ they rocks!!!!!

anyway bye bye!!(kinda nuts abit today)

( wish those who is sick will get well soon coz its really nt good nowadays with the flu and such)

Everyone should take care!!

=weeeehoooo~~~=

= Aigoo~ =

2009-04-24T18:25:00.002+08:00

i'm somehow or rather still in a FINISH exam mood......dont feel like doing any homework and wateva school work....just wanna eat sleep play haiz........how o? i havto finish alot of things.....such as:

folio kh,geo,sej,sivik,moral and etc( i think no more but who says we are exam oriented!?)
tons of karangan lol around 3?
and a few more..brain dead ==

so tats pretty much it....but in my case, most of the stress comes from the folio.....as said i dono how to do my geo folio , seriously........oh yeah and i fogot that mid term exam is around the corner? yes, one more week.....mid-term is seriously big deal! it got rankings that y it is troublesome....plus, parents have to come collect the report card!! geez.................right, talk about parents, i gotta tell my parents about the school fees? aigoo....................right, that is pretty much it...........tsk tsk.....a troublesome-high-school-student-life.....muahaha lol.........anyway i cant wait till PMR is over~~ like quite a few person said, 'bare for it a while and the last few months without PMR is heaven!' nyahaha!! i'll wait lol......means, gotta work harder ==

gtg realli computer is on wanted liast lol

=gehehehehe=

= Give up! =

2009-04-22T20:40:00.002+08:00

i donwan to do folio already! i donwan to do!! i donwan!!! i totally giving up on my geography folio, before i said that sejarah folio i very hard, now i take back! Geo folio is HARD! the teacher kept on slahing and slashing! its all wrong and wrong.....i wrote so long and yet she said my coverage area was too big......but if i dont, i think wangsa maju is just pretty small itself anyway.....so, what to write? mayb i should just use short ones......she said she donwan to accept draft already, then wat am i suppose to do? if i reconstruct my folio, i bet i have to let her mark another draft! argh!!!!!!!!!!

= off!=

PS: i choose history!!

= Erm,..... =

2009-04-11T17:14:00.002+08:00

As usual nth realli happened ==......but so cham on saturday which is suppose to be my having-a-nice-day sleep, i've got to go skool! *sigh* Want to give holiday den no nid to ganti lar......Want to give but want to kiamsap call ganti, better off if dey didnt give. Today is an exception coz, we went to skool study, during BM, sudddenly the koko teacher announced that after recess we are having co-curriculum. We were like, 'what?'. Then i was like, how are we suppose to koko with pinafore but you know lar, youngsters like us what also can one so we continued with our koko as usual somemore play until so fun but it was kinda annoying as well coz nowadays it's so hot! If it's nt so hot den it would be always raining. It's so imbalanced ==.

I kinda feel like today is friday but before i know it, it will always fast forward, or i'm out-dated? I'm always behind time anyway. That's a problem =.= but what can i do? Anyway, i'm looking forward even tho i'm behind time, that i'm glad to be doing so. Just this morning i was like suddenly so hesitant that what will happen if i didnt get straight A's? Since i'm kind of a imaginative person it always happen but i'm glad that i'm nt ove imaginative. I think i'm abit like the weather? Sometimes i'm over confident and yet sometimes i'm low-spirited. Will it be better if i were in the middle? Between both of that, i prefer being over rather than low-spirited. Anyway enough of crab. Let's just say that today the koko was fun. Since we seldom get to play haha. The school really have to cut short the assembly time! We always miss our recreation period and i hate it. I will kinda get irritated when they talk longer and longer while i just keep watching the time ticking away. Should really tell the teacher this line " Balancing time between studies and recreation are really important. That way, we'll have time for everything" (Taken from oral group's number 1 dialogue) haha xD. Seriously it's true tho. Thats all i guess........

PS: It's not that i typed 'crab' by mistake, i did it on purpose since i like 'crab' better xD

= I wanna watch drama! =

= Dong Bang Shin Ki! =

2009-04-06T15:42:00.004+08:00

From the left:Junsu,Changmin,Hero,Micky,Yunho

DBSK!!!! AH~~~~ currently i'm super obsessed with dbsk also known as Tohoshinki~~~ I like their japanese song better than their korean song hohoho but their korean songs are also ok......I'm crazily like 'Love in the ice'....Their live is like.....super awesome!! So....'feel'? xD....hope they would come to Malaysia soon....but eventho they come also i cant really go to their concert can i? haha.....it would be so crowded....wish i could get a special invitation from DBSK themself!! xD.......muahahahahahahahaha.......

+ super plus plus!! +

= 1 hour without electricity =

2009-03-30T15:45:00.002+08:00

1 hour without electricity,

save earth, save humans,

save the environment, save ur health,

so, 1 hour without electricity,

could save all living things,

nt only that, but also live together with mother nature in harmony,

in short, just off the lights for one hour,

it could make a big difference.

one more light switch off, the earth would be in a better condition,

dont you think it's worth the time, the effort?

well, i do think its a real good deal =)

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well, to be short, did you off your lights during earth hour? we werent asking to much, just the lights.......many countries participated in this event and it feels like a event that bring all of us together and make us feel more in harmony with the mother nature.......if you did switch off you lights during earth hour? if you did, well done.....and i'm sure you feel like you contributed something to the environment, which, of course is true......if you didnt, it doesnt matter, it's nt too late, start now save electricity.....tat way you contributed to the environment too!!! =)

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wohoooo......saturday, 8.30pm,

i switched off my lights and it was pitch dark ==

good for me tat i didnt knock on anything ==

i went to the balcony and looked around and i realize even the twin tower supported this event!! i feel very proud =)

next, i switched on my tv (yea i knw save electric!! but, i was so bored ==) i swtiched channel to tv8, and you knw wat, tv8 supported earth hour by nt airing anything for one hour!

it was cool, and finally when it wa 9.30, i switched back one the lights.....phew! i contributed! (at least some ==)

It was fun,looking down the balcony, i saw childrens and also adults walking around with their torch and handphon lights.....they were so noisy but at the same time it was fun, it is only in such an event that people would unite and live a better life!

=60 minutes with earth=

= Flu =

2009-03-28T15:24:00.002+08:00

sob~~ T_T flu again! why does the flu always find me? *sigh* bad enough i think i better drink more water because i have a feeling that soon i'm gonna have fever ==........my instincts better nt be true....i hope.....cant sleep cant eat very troublesome to have flu!! its more like clogged nose rather than flu i guess.........*sigh* ve-ry hard-to brea-the!

= geh geh=

-Seminar-

2009-03-26T18:07:00.002+08:00

today i went for the seminar at University Kuala Lumpur.....It was a university in the middle of the city, which is unusual of coz.....Usually universities are located at somewhr more...........hidden? i mean it should be a big place since there is campus and all....but this one is just a building with 31 floors (very high) of coz, i did nt try to go up until 31st floor( i should try...y i didnt thought about it just now?) and.....since we went very early reached about 7.20 am.....there werent many uni students......den arounf 7.45 we went in to the lecture hall.....the lecture hall was.....kinda.....ok i guess....the air-cond is pretty good i must say, since it made me freeze =.= and....it was cool, i mean its really like you are in university anyway.....a good experience i must say.....

next, about the seminar....erm......it was, kinda, ok i guess....but in my opinion its quite long, i mean 6 hours of talk? hmm, i kinda wanted to doze off but i just try my best to pay attention......coz he brought a water gun o_O......and he i mean the person who gives the talk, which is Dr Shukri, will shoot water on those who didnt pay attention (he will shoot it anyway if he wants to....right, he shoot it randomly around 3-5 times? right and my paper all got wet =.=) but nevertheless, the water gun was kinda fun coz hmm.... how to say? nobody did it before? so it was quite good......and den.....Dr Shukri was quite a great talker, it was interesting of coz, and it really makes sense.....hmm.......a great experience, and i think its pretty worthwhile since i only nid to pay RM10.....but the problem was, i gotta go home really late....i reached home at 6 T_T....it was scheduled to end by 5 T_T.......

so, den........i cant really pay attention coz i'm having some serious flu =.= and of coz when i am having flu, i feel.......dizzy? kinda weird tho....its always like that i guess.....weirdo.....rite.. tats it...

2molo i have to go to skool early again =.= becoz of PBSM haiz.....do they really nid pbsm for the marching event? i mean its.....*sigh* most likely it would be boring coz the marching members sure wont faint or anything *hope so* haiz......rite i'm feelin real sleepy rite now............*dozed off*

= Saturday =

2009-03-21T12:31:00.003+08:00

wow....its already satury and here i thought it was only friday....*sigh* wish i could turn back time hmm........only if i have the abilty to do so haha..... so......i only did my komsas ==.....yea finally finish haha...........rite i can finish readin 150 pages in one and a half hour and yet i can only write 3 pages with the same amount of time??!! wat is tat!?! *sigh* foget it...i write like a tortoise!

= lala =

= LALA~~ =

2009-03-14T16:11:00.003+08:00

*I'm waiting~~for you~~*
yahoo~~~ holiday~~~ samo one week, 9 days to be exact haha.... lolly....but this holiday wont be a relaxing holidays...*sigh* whole lot of work waiting for me.....*i'm waiting for you~~~* btw let me list out some homework really:

erm, KOMSAS!! the most freaking lot ones, or mayb nt...hmm.....could be considered as alot but it is also kinda.....*my fault* lol for nt doing it when the teacher told me to

and den the maths, not alot but coz i'm lazy it piled up!

........right BM again with the hotspot~~ ringkasan, guess i have to do it afterall my ringkasan very......*bad*

sej~~ exercises and notes....exercises very little nia but notes.......

and of coz.....the one that i dread.....assignments~~~~ folio~~~~ with 3 folio to do in just 9 days?!! it's impossible........(no,dun tell me nth is impossible)

right.................no more i think?

cheh, now that i see the list it doesnt seem that much muahahahaha.......lolly.....anyway gotta do it and study~~~~ or mayb last minute study would do? T_T april gt intervensi~~~hmm......how come times moves so fast? already in march~~ means left only about 6 months deduct hoildays 4 months?!?!?! my god~~~~ sob!!!!!!!!!right gtg find new templates for me blog.....guess i'll find some abstract ones....or mayb nt....watever is nice would do i guess.....alalalalala~~~have a great holiday~~

= ta da =

PS: 199 days left to pmr after this holiday! (goh goh told me haha)

= Very stressed! =

2009-03-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

Argh!! so freaking annoyed!! cant stand it liao lar....everytime oso must gt like that....feels like giving that person 2 tide slap .....if only i could i would have done it... wat an annoying fella!

Makes me loathe to the point of wanting to scold him non-stop.....reasons:
-annoying
-doesnt hear explanation
-only knw how to scold and never helps
-always pick a fight while the other party just stand it
-which human tat has no heart seeing 2 person crying still scold (in translation)'cry for wat, no use one'
-usually i just keep quiet never say anything but today i just cant stand already!!
-very clever when scold nt in front of his frens when ppl go only he start scolding
-always talk bad about other ppl in front of his frens
-always oso 'perasan' he very clever, as if
-'kacang lupakan kulit' very well suits him
-he wouldnt have achieved what he has now if wouldnt for the other party
-just knw how ot pick a fight out of small things just bcoz he is unhappy and he wants someone back
-just like to scold loudly in front of the workers
-think he himself very clever say ppl always respect him while doesnt care for the other party
-thinks he himself is perfect and does nth wrong
-i believe in people does mistakes so i hate him
-he is nt a perfectionist yet he wants ppl to be perfect or more like he is picking for a fight
-always say this say that talk big but never really does what he preach

while there is alot more, i just cant say it all out in english kinda hard....wish other ppl could have known....why is there no justice? must we always bear being scolded like a dog....we a re humans just because were ladies doesnt mean u could scold us like that....

if not because he is a guy i dont think ppl would even care for him.....always make decisions by himself and dont discuss yet watever is wrong is blamed on the other party.....

a msg for him if he even see it i hope he will and he can:
Dont think u are perfect..No one is perfect and we are all humans with flaws....If u are perfect y would humans like us exist? If there only u in the world u wouldnt have been able to live....Every humans like depending on other people...Dont think u are all mighty and such just because u achieve some good results....Forget it, u would have depend on someone yet u dont thank but scold them? U THINK U ARE CLEVER? THERE WOULD ALWAYS BE SOMEONE MORE CLEVER AND IF U ARE CLEVER THE OTHER PARTY IS NT STUPID TOO.

bear this in mind people:
-no one is perfect
-learn to forgive and forget
-have more sense of responsibility
-everybody lives depending on people, learn to appreciate and you'll achieve more
-easier said than done:do ur best and its ok
-be kind to people and u will get kindness
-be strong, be decisive, fight for what is right

'Practice what u preach' I'll do it......i believe doing my best would be better than nt trying

=.......=

Sick again??

2009-02-02T17:07:00.002+08:00

haiz........sick again~~~ohohohoho~~~ lucky now ok already...xD....
so, the story:

On chinese new year eve, in the morning, have feel liao like sick sick....feeling unwell but didnt care coz like still ok...i often like this one so i thought no big deal....den, at the evening....feeling the head very hot ler...so go sleep dono how many hours....and den wake up feel @_@.....den havto tell parents liao...parents say nth de go eat panadol....den at tat time i was like *OMG!* coz....i....dono how to...*cough* swallow medicine*cough* ok i knw very stupid....den i go break the panadol into half and dono must mentally prepare how long.....drank 2 cups of water to swallow it down... den come my father
say: 'one nt enough one, eat another one'......again!!
Den, forcefully havto eat another one again.....T_T....so hard... ok fine den next morning....

must eat panadol again....so ok celebrate new year like usual can play badminton samo...... but at night came nightmare....the heat is back....until the 2nd day of new year, havto go see doctor already.....cannot celebrate my new year T_T.....havto sleep....the problem is the doctor gave tons of CAPSULES!! means i havto swallow....i hate go see doctor!!! T_T......

den a few days suffer liao oso haven ok...the medicine going to finish oso haven ok T_T....havto go see another doctor (my father's fren) den the doctor say i nt enough vitamin c =.=.....and den say i a litlle anemic .....wats tat? o_O....dun care...den!! COMES THE SYRINGE!! is it even necessary? T_T..... den the doctor find the vein.....i dun even dare to see the needle~~~~ very long~~~and fat =.=.....so long also cant find the vein den another doctor (they are brothers and both my father's fren) say: "tak apa, cucuk sekali tengok".....OMG!! i thought don u experiment~~~

*POKE* den .....no blood?!?!?! den he *turn...turn....turn* den he say ....no blood!! *take out*......i was like (so pain!!!) then, *POKE* finally the blood gushing out.....den when he took enough, he cant find the cottons and he left the needle inside while finding for the cottons!!! haiz.....=.=....what a nightmare....~~~

den bad enough reach home nose blocked like wan die liao cant sleep....havto go find the doctor again.....he finally gave me some nose drops....hoho~~~ feel better....den can sleep....den lead to now, ok already....haha.....some experience hmm.....but too bad my new year~~~ o come back~~~

ok lar bye bye

+ Dolly,dolla +

Pain~~

2009-01-22T19:31:00.002+08:00

T_T..... today so unlucky.......haiz......talk about bad luck, now i knw....yes, i knw how u feel....lol.....ok here goes the story.....

Today went to school like usual....feeling nth. Den go to class like usual...Pjk was fun but Bm wasnt....DEN, here comes sports practice.....
Form 3 was suppose to run 100m....den while waiting for my turn to run....something happened ==.....i was standing there and don ask how...a ball hit me ==.....a baseball ball....and yea it freaking hurt.....at first i was like....huh?? den slowly it hurt ==.......For the time being i don see any bruise but it hurts when i move..... it all happened so fast... i wasnt able to react....and i wasnt even facing them and it hurt it front.....i guess i turned on the spur of moment and it hit me....i guess i should be grateful that its not my head.... well, the chinese say bad luck for 3 times and i'll have gud luck so i should take it positively.....still,.........what can i say its too bizarre....actually when i watch them play i already have the feeling that it would hit me ==.....then once the ball she almost cant catch... she told us"no nid sked wont hit u all one".........and yea right ==......

Oh yea gtg....havto go take my dinner......haiz....what should i say? lol

+pain pain+

= WAY TOO LONG!!! =

2009-01-19T15:27:00.002+08:00

wow......so long never post haha....well school has been busy *serious* .......
lol jkjk....not so busy but i usually sleep in the afternoon xD....no time to open computer...hehehe...ok, lets summarize....

School re-open:
....sad T_T.....haiz....the mornin i went to school i just feel like the....sky is so dark....well, tat is normal coz during holiday i wake up at 9 something xD.....den....i see see finding for my class line...but even the first day i almost late liao ==.....but nvm coz first day usually assembly start late and they give chance hohoho....den i saw a few frens cut hair liao.... ok den assembly start and they was like....talking alot...havto sit very very long...haiz...actually i don quite remember but i knw we sit many times in the hall for a long period....i mean including this week tat is....my leg also going to break ==....den first day den havto study already and also have homework already .....( '_' ).......first day i totally no mood .....den ok done....

Second week:
Which mean the past week....*dot dot dot*....while eating and typing right now i only realize i hav just been in week for 2 weeks and the homework is piling up ==.....even tho it is PMR year it's still too stressfull...and with the TOP 40 it's more and more stressing.....so back to topic...this week the only thing i remember was i bought lots of clothes since it's just yesterday lol....and the science seminar was really interesting...haha.....

n den.................nth already.........*doooooooooooooooooooooooooooot*

yes, tat summarize all hohoho......

= Long time no see Panda =

= Back...... =

2008-12-05T17:39:00.002+08:00

ah....finally back from my vacation....bought loads of dramas.....taiwanese one and of coz original too....gotta watch finish bfor skool reopens hohoho....the tour was fun and the peoples were interesting....lol....really nth to say about....seven days never use computer is so....haiz....but finally i'm back with m computer xD....and my internet too....my pillow and bolster too ^^.......very lazy to type...the flight was torturing...both of it was...going and coming back haiz....now i knw i cant stand aeroplane..... al the time i feel (@@) haiz.......and i feel like puking.....lucky that i didnt or else it'll stink and more people will puke LOL.....that will be quite a scene....very lazy to upload pictures so i wont be uploading it....too much of a hassle....the weather there is so cool xD....not like malaysia so hot...there is just right...not too hot or too cold....but in the morning its freezing cold (=_=) the wind is constantly blowing so even the sun is there it's not really hot....bought many things and have lots of trouble bringing it back home *sigh* spent too much until the last day not enough money too use !!! now i knw how scary it is to be in a foreign country without money LOL....lucky that now i'm back in malaysia the country that i PRO in haha....and they talk mandarin (=_=) so hard too understand....pity me....oh well, still it was a pretty fun vacation xD....and now feels abit weird to be back here.....(o_O) well, i can adapt anyway....so.........tats all for the holiday report....pretty short for a week holiday haha....still there is nth to talk about hmm.....

= Panda's Home =

And yeah, i cant type as fast as i used to be....i just didnt touch my computer for a week and this is the result....*sigh*

= cut,cut,cut =

2008-11-24T11:47:00.002+08:00

Weeeeeeeee~~~ Just gt a haircut yesterday. So happy. Finally gt to cut my hair. (^^) Planned to cut super short but seems like i havto prepare for skool next year too. So, practically i just have it layered and abit short. It's better now, nt so hot. Also, it doesnt look that weird anymore haha. Tho, i cant really tie it up already. Mayb still can but harder than usual *sigh* Hope my hair would grow long once skool is going to start. Or else i'm in deep trouble. Ok, nth more. GTG!

= lalalalala panda =

= speechless =

2008-11-23T20:58:00.002+08:00

Just watch finish a chinese movie, kung fu dunk. It's nice but the moves inside the movie is so cool lol. Hmm, let's see, wat shud i say about............Oh ok, a few weeks ago i dont really remember when (=_=), i went to 1 Utama and say ASIMO. The Honda developed humanoid robot. It's so cool, can walk , run ,talk , and many more. Also it's very cute (^^). Previously i wrote before a essay about it and at that time i thought how i wish i could have it. Eventhough i cannot own it, at least i saw it. It's like a dream come true!!

Erm..........and then, in the past few weeks i did nothing but laze around. I was really doing out the 'eat,sleep,play' thing. I wanted to do the holiday alert but without textbook some of it i really cant do. So, eventually i'm dragging and did nothing about it. (=_=) The sejarah is really impossible to do without textbook. The teacher thought we all superheroes ar. *sigh*

Now what...............Really nothing but time passes so quickly. Now almost 2 weeks done liao....TEACHERS!!! PLS ARRANGE THE HOLIDAYS LONGER!!! I'M WAITING!! I dont want to start school all over again *sob* The first day is the worst! The feeling~~~ Some kind of like....homesick mayb. Yea, plus the first day is boooooooooooooooooring. What's worse is next year gt PMR!!

Yes!! Next saturday i'm going to a vacation!! So happy!! Going for one week (^^) HOHOHO!!! Gonna buy lots and lots of stuff but must bring the stuff home is a problem (=_=). *sigh* Tats all lar.

WISH ME A HAPPY HOLIDAY!!! (^^)

= Panda....................... =

= Irritated!! =

2008-11-13T17:28:00.002+08:00

Geez, i was super duper irritated during the afternoon and practically was smashing my phone (=.=) how immature of me. Yesterday i slept late around 2 i think, very usual time for me tho. So eventually in the morning i was sleepy. Also, if i'm sleepy i knw wat will happen that is my mood will turn to the worst (^^'') Then, of course i was forced to wake up and so i did. Then, reach the 2nd home, i immediately went to sleep without having my breakfast. Actually i wanted to eat 1st bfor going to sleep, but i cant stand anymore so i went to sleep. Everything went well and i was sleeping VERY soundly. Then, suddenly the phone started to ring, i mean the fax machine. Of course i have to force myself to wake up and walk a few steps to the phone and pick it up. Just to find that is was the fax. Supposingly if it was a fax i could just ingnore it bcoz it would automatic receive it. One time was enuf to irritate me. After picking up i went back to sleep. Just, after i covered my blanket and prepared to go back to sleep, the phone rang again! I wanted to ignore it, but i just cant (=.=) So, again i forced myself to pick it up. Fine, and i went back to sleep. Again!! It rang!! It was for many times, i even lost count of it. Once it was out of paper, once was the paper stucked. Man, it was hard. I even teared my blanket (lame) Only abit so i guess i can still use it. Poor me. Still, in the end i managed to have a good sleep. I practically even planned to off the phone, gud that i didnt....*sigh*

Well, that's it. My first day of holiday is practically ruined (=.=) Also, i was wondering if i shud go on the holiday......hmm, a hard choice. I dun really want to go, but i want to go too....Argh!! What should i do?!?!?!

= Troubled Panda =

= Holi- holiday~~~ =

2008-11-12T18:37:00.003+08:00

lalalala........*humming* so happy~~~finally a long break is here~~~ no more homeworks, no more waking up early, no more exams, no more results, no more stress and many more~~~~but, cant meet wif frens......* sigh * gonna miss them~~~ well, not the end of the world...have to enjoy my holidays to the fullest.. such as online everyday and play everyday and sleep many hours, online at midnight haha......cant help, tat is life~~~

Wish everyone have a fantastic and memorable holidays~~ I'll try my best to create my own memories. Hope the others will too. (^^)

= lalalala Panda =

= Yipee do!!! =

2008-11-11T17:27:00.002+08:00

Yes!! Finally!! The results are out and there is nth more to worry!! Hmm, today we gt our sivik paper. My marks are ok, in fact is average nth to be depressed. Then, the bm paper?? Oh lol, upon receiving the results, what happen after is kinda.......interesting??? well, in my life supposingly. Btw, the marks were gud, nt really that bad and i didnt expect the section C which i thought i'm gonna fail for sure, scored the highest mark. Hmm, happy me (^^). But other sections failed me, especially the novel. I didnt knw that i nid 10 content to score full marks so practically i only gotten 7. Pity, so many room for improvement in my sivik and bm paper. So, practically it is already decided that i get number 6. Quite a nice number i guess lol. Yea, my whole life kinda seem to revolve around this number. (o_O) weird i knw.

Hmm, the 'incident'. Actually somehow or rather when i receive my bm paper, i was kinda....how to say? Bersemangat?? Ok well, is actually like this. Hmm, right after i receive my paper i checked out the difference between the person above me by one position to determine the ranking. Since the difference is like.....super small?? Then, i found out that i scored higher in bm. Haha happy me (^^) Den for sure i wanted to get higher so i asked for the teacher's permission and went out to find for the bm teacher. Actually what i wanted to add marks is bcoz the teacher promised to add marks for me n one of my fren bcoz we entered an essay competition. Humph, den the teacher say she already add somehow or rather. Problem is, when i came out from the staff room, i was like so excited, yes, EXCITED. So, without noticing i accidentally said something that made my fren misunderstood me. I also think my expression that time wasnt all tat good (=.=) stupid me. So, i went to the hall, the teacher was there sitting, and alot of our class is like, rushing to her? Hmm, havoc lol. Then, another teacher scolded us 4 bothering the form 3 students in their ......lecture? Yes, so we went for the side. Then when i was there, somehow or rather the same fren who misunderstood me earlier, saw me like i was kinda depressed. WHICH, i wasnt bcoz that time i was very angry, yes i am but nt bcoz of the results. Humph, was bcoz the 2 teacher scolded us. Evil them >=( Uh-huh, den bcoz alot ppl wanted to add marks and the teacher was like so busy, she telled us to wait in the staff room.

Den, i went back to the lab bcoz many ppl was heading to the staff room and i was very lazy. I decided to add marks later. Then, inside there, we watch the japanese movie which i find quite nice (^^). First of all, the fren who misunderstood me was the exactly the same person which stood one position higher than me. (=.=) Coincidence??

She thought i was very sad with the results. Tho, she asked me whether i was upset or nt outside the lab, i said yes (=.=) That was the whole different story (Biggest misunderstanding ever!!) In the end, bcoz she was too kind-hearted, she decided to nt add marks. Humph, what a good fren BUT i think she shouldn't act like that anymore. I was kinda making a hard decision whether to add or nt too. (tho i added =.=, lame i knw lol) One quote, 'survival of the fittest'. To my fren, please remember that. In a war, if u dont kill, u'll get killed.

Lalalala....In the end the results were fair and good. Mayb i was kinda glad that in ended up like that. Like that our relationship wont be broken (^^). Tho i like to tease her (xD) (pls dont take the teasing to heart. Pls remember that it is not ur fault that i get lower position, just bcoz of i'm nt working hard enough ^^) Yes, i believe i can do much much better. I think i have the ability to climb up the ladder. Everyone must learn thing the hard way ^^.

So, in the end everything is good and fair. Yay!! and i have nth more to worry about!! 2molo last day of skool !! Gotta jump like a monkey. ~~~~~~~lalalalalala~~~~~~~~

Gotta go eat my dinner now. So hungry~~~~ starving~~~~~

= Glad Panda =

=Sob!! =

2008-11-10T15:54:00.002+08:00

Uwaaah~~!! (T_T) Wanna go knock my head already!! Today was such a bad day......haiz.....I mean by the events is alrite, afterall we had our class party BUT the exam papers that i receive today is disastrous!!! I received my maths and also my arts. I got 75 for my maths which IS ultra super BAD. I wanna knock my head seriously AND my arts i got a 'Cat' i mean 'C' which is 59. It is really is ridiculous. I totally put my heart in drawing and colouring but the teacher say JUST bcoz i didnt use water colour i can get higher marks?!!! Den i went to ask for a higher marks and she said no water colour cannot add!!! she add others from 67 can go until 75!! BUT she say mine cannot (T_T) That totally made me go mad!! Supposingly my position is suppose to be quite high BUT bcoz of these 2 subject, i'm sure it will go lower. Afterall, the person below me is just few marks away and she got a better marks for both of this subject. *sigh* What to do? Just have to accept it.......haiz.........I hope that my bm marks wont be very low. I was very confident with my bm paper 1 BUT somehow it turned out to be quite................not good.........*sigh* Nth i can do but to hope for a better paper 2 BM...

Enough already......I want to go and sleep. No mood to do anything...........haiz...........

= Self pity Panda =

= Cant wait!! =

2008-11-05T16:06:00.002+08:00

AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!!!!! Dont need to read books already!!!! Dont need to stress my brain!!! Yipeeeeeee!! Finally!!! Actually haven finish also. But just one more day!! and the last day is just practical!! Seni.......haiz.....which topic shud i choose?? Kinda like all the topics are hard and....WEIRD...... Yes, it IS hard. All of the topic involve drawing peoples. Peoples are fine but have to paint also!! Have to eat more breakfast tomorrow haha.. So that when i paint, my hand wont be shaking~~~~

Exam finish den next is..........RESULTS!!!
Oh my~~~~~ How?? Results~~~ Oh well, enjoy while u can >xD

Yes, tonite i can go back and play my PlayStation (^^)

= Yahoo yipee yoo!! =

= Stressed ?? =

2008-11-01T18:09:00.002+08:00

Hmm, a question to myself. Am i stressed out? I dont think i am but i'm worrying. Does that even counted as stress??? Nevertheless, i'm very worried about the exams AND of course my BM and BI paper 2. I'm worried because i think the BM i did the section C which is the multiple choice essay, very very weirdly. Now that i think about it, mayb i did it out of the topic *OMG* Kinda scared because i did before during ....dono wat standard erm i only know it is in primary school....whr i did the essay out of topic and get only 7/30.. Disastrous. Hope i didnt wrote it out of topic tis time.... About the BI also i feel it is weird. Not that it is out of topic but......dono how to say. Anyway i wanna knw the question but i lost the question paper. How stupid (=_=)

Anyway, i cant do anything now but hope. Hope that everything would turn out fine and i can score great results (HAHAHAHAH!!! XD) Call this daydreaming or watever but still wish me luck.

I am suppose to be studying but i'm actually having fun with the internet. (>_<)

And yeah, wish everyone the best in their exams and all the best. (^_^)

Mental note to self: read questions properly and pray!!

= Yeah!! =

= Panda Sorry!! =

2008-10-22T14:48:00.002+08:00

T_T so guilty.....i always also guilty one.... My sense of guilt is too strong. Eventho the person say it's ok, i still think it's nt ok.... Why?!! Y am i always so guilty? Dun understand. Haiz........... Ok, is actually like this one, during geography period, she asked me one question, so i answered lor. My fault that i simply answered of coz. Then, when check answer that time, actually the answer i gave was wrong. She knew the answer, she asked me jist bcoz she dono wat that word meant!! If she knew the meaning of the word, whe would have gotten full marks. Bcoz of my stupidity and gave wrong answer, then something like that happened and i'm very guilty.

SOmetimes when i tell the person wrong information or i accidentally hurt the person's feeling i feel guilty. But i kinda dono how to apologize~~~ So how? Haiz......

= Guilty Panda =

= Panda Full...B-burp~~ =

2008-10-21T16:12:00.002+08:00

Phew......so full... just ate a packet of "kuay tiew goreng", not quite sure how to spell and also a packet of "tomyam" soup. The soup was fantastic. Spicy and sour... Mmmm~~~ yumm-eh!!

Actually nth to say just to drop by. Checking out the blog. Wanna check out some new release of manga and some nike stuffs. But seems like the nike site needs the newest and in-date flash player, which i mostly like donhav in tis desktop. Wanna find my sejarah textbook and i cant find it. oh my~~ i'm doomed. I cant find it~~~~Yelp~~~

Sister call me to do something. BRB!!

.................................................................

Kay kay done. Did it wrongly tho. (=_=) I'm stupid!! haiz..................Suppose i need to study but i really have no mood to study and i was like haven study anything yet?!!! How?!!! I wanna study sejarah but i cant find my textboook!! Even if i found it i doubt i would read tho, the moment i open the book i'll feel sleepy and of coz eventually i would go to sleep. Wanna to do some maths but i kinda didnt pay attention when teacher was teaching so i don really knw how to do and need my reference book, and also coincidentally i didnt bring my refereance book, or more like i dont wanna bring it. Haiz................................Oh well, guess i would just resort to sleeping!!

= Sleeping Panda =

= Panda Half-happy Half-sad =

2008-10-20T16:06:00.002+08:00

yahoo!!! my mother come back liao....and of coz i get many souvenirs from Korea!!! But man, they bought all those cutie-pie stuff....lol like white tiger plushie pouch, teddy bear pencil box and keychain, lol and also a nike girly bag!! Tho its girly, the nike bag really rox!! green dude...it's green in colour... But i'm kinda wondering, would i use it? lol...hmm....samo wat they bought? Oh yea the utmost important one, snacks!!! They bought 2 big bags of snacks haha.... Alot seaweeds and seaweed crackers. I have yet to explore all the foods. Grab it while i can!!

hmm....and about the sad part, there is actually quite a few things. First of coz, the examinations.
I'm really getting very stressed right now!! Second, it's bcoz of one person, that person is like...how to say? Haiz....foget it... I cant really explain. It'll just get more and more confusing if i try to explain.

I'm very sleepy right now and i dun feel quite well since i slept super late last night. I think i only manage to sleep about 3-4 hours? Tho i really want to sleep rite now, i just ate my lunch so i cant really sleep now. It's very fattening to sleep rite after eating... Lol yea i knw, pathetic? Oh well, watever i'm not gonna care for once, i'm gonna sleep!!

But i kinda still wan to type things but dono wat to write already. Hmm, today wat happen at skool? Erm, during bm, did karangan which is of coz very hard coz it's about tradisional food. I actually wanted to write story about a boy he received a phone call from his uncle at Australia regarding his grandmother's chronic condition. Then, his parents went to visit and promised to call home when they reached there but he never received a call until a few days later. The call was to inform him that his parents airplane crashed and a few hours later he recieved another call form his uncle saying that his grandmother passed away. And the story ends like that. I knw, it's super evil , it's like everybody died, except for him. I was telling Yan Ling the story until half whr she already knw wat would happen. Impressive huh?

Den is geography period, nth happened. During recess, Dhuha was like fasting so i have to recess alone. Usually i would go library if she is fasting but today i kinda like wanna eat canteen food. So, i went. Then, when i was eating, Dhuha came. Oh,suprise! Den after a while Farah came and said she is not feeling well, so Dhuha offered to go to the medical room with her. And so, i'm alone again.

Hmm, during maths and sivik really nth happened. During BI, we wrote an essay about the future. Yan Ling, Tze Keei, Hui Min and I were together in a group. We were like messing around and did nth and finally tried to do something wen the teacher went out. And of coz we manage to write out a ridiculous story. Where the robot killed someone and was holding a human's head lol.......

Ok, enough!! BYE BYE!!

=Panda super-duper sleepy=

= Panda Wishing =

2008-10-17T08:47:00.002+08:00

Erm, wat to say.... Ok, first and foremost- Happy birthday to michelle!!- Althought it's late by one day i hope she dont mind (^^'') Greetings:

- May u be blessed with happiness -
- Erm, kinda stuck now... Celebrate ur bday happily eventho u r a year older? jkjk -
- Dont be afraid to tell ppl ur age!! U r definitely still young!! (mayb?)
- Keep ur crazy personality!! It is very well received.. (^^) -
- Smile and laugh more!! (Eventho u laugh pretty much now) but still, u can improve!! -

And yeah, dont play rain already...Later sick= means no michelle in class= "silent" class....LOL...

... !!! ...

Haha, so wat to say now? Erm, okay nothing already....Gotta go edubox later =.= ....
And yeah!! my mom is gonna come home!! xD

= Bye bye!! =

= Panda Tired =

2008-10-14T17:21:00.003+08:00

...So... Tired... Gonna faint~~ Miss my mom~~ and sis........ They just went for 2 days nia and i already complaining liao lar~~~ I wanna folo them >_<....Why do i have school ...T_T... if no school i went liao lar....Evil evil~~

Haiz... Cant have afternoon nap for one week T_T So tired......... Gotta run up and down from a 8 steps stairs... Oh well lucky that it's only for one week.... If it's gonna be any longer, i dont think i cant stand it.... Every mornin oso havta wake up earlier....

...No milo for breakfast...
...Have to fill my own water bottle...
...Have to pack my own clothes and slippers...
...Have to make sure gt uniform to wear...
...Spoiled uniform no people repair...
...Gotta sleep earlier so that mornin can wake up...
...Limited usage of com...
...No lunch( nt literally lar just late lunch)...
...Havta tie my hair myself...

Haiz.... Mommy!!~~~~ haiz........still havta suffer 6 days!!! Die lor.......................................Lucky gt my bro...no den i really die jor.....ok lar.....GTG!! *actually i'm eating right now.... my keyboard smells like food....my mouse tooo, smell like chili lol....*

= Panda Sleepy =

= Panda Struggling =

2008-10-11T12:47:00.003+08:00

Ah~~ So long never update~~ Kinda forgot about it already =.=.... What to do? My life is so boring that there is no interesting things to write about? Oh well, i guess i have somethings to rant about.

First off, i gotta say tat the story book 'Angels and Demons' by Dan brown is totally...cool. It is a amazing and deserves to be a bestseller!! Nevertheless it is also very detailed. I gotta read the sequel which is 'The Da Vincci Code'

Second, exams coming soon but i haven read anything i mean HAVEN READ ANYTHING!! What to do? Whenever i want to study i feel sleepy T_T. I totally have no determination =.=. I cant do anything seriously. I do everything half-heartedly haiz.

So i'm currently struggling to keep up with the studies as well aas my life. Any tips?

WISH ME LUCK!!

= Panda sleepy=

= ......... Panda =

2008-09-25T23:09:00.003+08:00

I watching a very very disgusting movi right now...... I'm typing this while i'm watching. Erm, this story is practically kinda dont make sense. There is this guy a he went to a lake and dont know did something and brought back a serial killer form dead. This dead guy, Jason was a brutal murderer. He is practically lifeless and souless he kill everyone in his sight and wont die by mrely shooting. So, the guy Tommy, hve to find a way to bring back Jason to the lake so that he wont kill anyone. Then, many people died before they are able to stop him but at last Jason was able to be stopped.

Kinda a weird movie i know. It is totally violent because they........haiz very bloody movie.

Next time i dont want to watch this kind of movie already!!

= Panda ........... =

= Panda's Suffering =

2008-09-19T22:19:00.002+08:00

ouch~~~ ouchies~~~ May my ouchies be blown away with the winds~~~ haha i copied tat from a manga....It's already 2 days since my hand pain. Muscle pain T_T....The Push-ups!! They are evil T_T..... My hand is like can't bend. Hurt hurt~~~It's just 20 times and it hurt like....mayb i shud do more lar or mayb i shud do again,uh.....T_T wanna die ler. Hopes it will not hurt so much when i wake up. Pain,pain go away~~Yurrrr............Someone massage for me!!! T_T I think nid use yoko-yoko liao~~!!

= Panda Creative =

2008-09-16T15:45:00.004+08:00

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Ah~~~~~ Dono how to start. Erm, erm, erm, ok, Just came back from school. Dono wan do wat so type blog..uh... ok, see the slippers up there? It was actually brown colour. Guess y it became so....flower-ish? Haha, i simply draw the things with white or silver marker (very expensive marker) Kinda regret doing it tho but it's alrite i have fun ^^. Wat made me draw? I was chatting with Olivia(if u read scroll down down).Ok this is how the story goes,
Me: Yo!
Olivia: Hi
Me: Wah so bored~~
Olivia: Want to bind my folio. U knw where to bind?
Me: Oso stay at diff place.
(Den i go eat dinner)
Me: Wah, so full.
Olivia: Dinner?
Me: Yea. Still haven bind?
Olivia: Waiting my mom come home.
Me: Oh, hey how u think is enjoying life?
Olivia: Erm, go hang gai (shopping)
Me: Lepak oso nice meh.
Olivia: Nt lepak lar.
Me: Oh, buy things. Wat things?
Olivia: Shoe!
Me: Huh, y shoe?
Olivia: (hmm, tis part is ......forget ^^'')
Me: Oh wat type of shoe?
(send me one pic)
Me: wah so yeng.
Olivia: Yeng leh. They draw themself one.
Me: U shud draw too.
Olivia: Donwan lar. U draw lar.
Me: Ok lor.

Thats all. Actually it was way longer but i'm too lazy to type. So i cut cut cut just the main point got then enough llar. So practically the picture she send and she cabar me so i draw lor. Haha. Tell me wat u think about it.

=Panda Mad?=

* See, y i say wrong was bcoz u were already wrong from the fact tat i would even do it. * ( I think i have given others a bad impression from my attitude. Haiz, pity i belive i'm quite ok person i guess *totall convincing myself* Oh well, see, u were wrong from the very first)

= Panda School Days =

2008-09-15T16:31:00.002+08:00

Ah~~~ So bored. Pretty sleepy, mayb i will sleep in 10 more minutes? Yea after blogging i guess. Ok my usual days are eat,skool,eat,sleep,play,sleep. In one day i do all of those only and it repeats of coz. It is a cycle of my daily life. Go skool pay no attention to announcement so even if holiday is near i also dono one.

Just came back from skool and go customize this blog and invite people. Inviting is hard mayb i shud just leave it as public,shud I? Haiz, anyway just a short short post. Nth to do just typing for fun. Oh yea had quite some fun today. Tommorrow have to face-to-face with one person, hah! Have to tell her my impression on her haha. More like lecturing mayb? Anyway just to say i very lazy wanna upload the PD pictures. It might take very long till i post it haha~~ Slowly wait o~~

=Panda Lazy=

= Panda's Return =

2008-09-14T23:06:00.002+08:00

Irasshaimassen!!(welcome) haha. Panda wa okairi da! Actually i dono Japansese oh well just for fun eh. Anyway Panda's back!! Haiz but it was too short. Didnt actullay play the water sports =.=. Oh well, i'll have the chance again. Ah~~ but i really wanted to try volleyball. Somemore is beach one leh! Oh yea and i didnt buy any souvenirs! Coz it was only half a day! (sorry guys!) Even if i wanted to buy, it will be very expensive! (All right! I'm stingy!) but still sorry guys. (especially Lemon Tea)

Dont worry! I'll buy something at here if i saw something nice and......*cheap* Ahem! haha. So it was quite......ok. Oh yea the food there is quite ok. Afterall we just went there for dinner with my father's fren afterall. The room is......very.....sauna-ish. I mean the air-cond is so hot. No air is coming out. I'm almost roasted,uh!! I thought of getting some tan, but there was no sun!! (Oh yea i realise i'm very fair suddenly. I say my face in the mirror and i thought * OMG!! So white! So scary!* Then on the next day, my aunt say i was very fair and looks like i'm sick and unhealthy!) T_T Shall be darker!

It took very long to reach there by car. Erm, around one and a half hour? The journey there was horrible! It was so SO noisy in the car. I have trouble even trying to hear who is talking plus they on the radio so loud and they so loud! Cant stand it! Furthermore, i slept very late the night bfor so i was in a extremely sleepy mood! So i was so so frustrated! The journey home was fine~~

Kay tats all! Might upload some pic but nt my pic of coz! Only the scenery haha

= Panda Sleepy =

*mental note- finish ur homework now! yes sir!*

= Panda Excited =

2008-09-13T12:08:00.002+08:00

yahoo!! This weekend go Port Dickson!! Tho only for 2 days but i'm very excited!! Y? Bcoz.....*cough* i never went there bfor *cough* and so hmm u knw.... Y? of coz bcoz its a holiday very normal to be excited. Ahem! lol...yea yea i knw. So old and never went there bfor? Yea so wat i never went Pangkor never went Tioman and so on.......... Too bad that my life is uneventful. So wat? I enjoy it too bcoz i can 24/7 wif my com bwahaha.... Actually not this weekend. Is actually today haha.... Still have time to type blog when i haven even pack!! Gosh!! Oh well watever not tat i dont knw i'm a last minute person. Lucky that i finish quite some of my sejarah or else if i come back only do sure die. But i dono how to do some of it!! How?!! Must pass up monday somemore. Haiz....
Wat i usually will say to myself when no finish homework(devil side):

Watever~~~~~Dont!
Yea yea well~~~~~Pay attention to me!!
Aiyo, don care lar~~~~~Wat?!
Wat? I thought u last minute one wat~~~~~~Erm......
Aish, can one lar sure can one~~~~~Cannot one!
Nvm, gt alot ppl no do one~~~~No way! Dont think everbody oso lazy!
No nid lar u whr gt so rajin har~~~~Erm....But.......!

Wat i usually say to myself to reply devil side (angel side):
Wat if the teacher scold?~~~~~U care one meh?
Wat if all ppl oso finish?~~~~~Impossible!
Very embarassing if scolded in front of everyone~~~~Eh, i thought u thick face one?(just to say, i'm not ok!)
Must be good panda lar next year PMR~~~~~I thought u very clever nt sked one?
Somemore exam around near the corner~~~~~I thought u usually very last minute one?
*Convincing myself i'm good* Eh, this is nt the person i knw?

Haha....Actually gt alot one but type all meh~~~ See the angel side so good haha.....i have more white than black kay. Anyway, be a good kay? ( *devil whisper* dun! dun! ) Cheh! Both of u shush!! Ahem! ok i separated them. Anyway gtg. Go lunch haha~~

= Panda Nuts =

= Panda Hungry =

2008-09-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

Starving~ Sta-Starving~

Geez! When i come back from school, I was so so starving. I dieting hohoho. I think i hmm.....10 hours never eat? wow cool. Didnt eat during recess bad deal. Then when after school have to work at the school dono wat wat. Then don;t have time to eat. Then the senior call me go take water lar throw rubbish lar and etc...... So i was half dying. Then my parents came 1 hour after that. So add up around 10 hours kua.

So go home liao eat one tin of biscuit lol. Then eat keropok and all sort of stuff lar. When catering food come eat again then go pasar eat again. Walao i think i crazy liao. Unhealthy lifestyle. Haiz next time cannot do like that again.

= Starving Panda =

*mental note to self= Don't skip lunch and recess. Will lead to starvation*

= Panda Wet! =

2008-09-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

Wet!! Wet!! I'm soaking wet!! Haha 'fun time'!! Lol.

Kembara Merdeka finally ended after.......3 days? Yea 3 days. Phew no need act already, no need shout already. Have to wait for my commision haha. Teacher!! You promised! Miss Wong and the geng came in and recorded our performance saying that it's for the Datin to watch. Omg, i looks like a gangsta. Not good later kena spotted =.=.

Someone said that it might be showed on TV2. Is it even possible? I don't think so o_O. Anyway i don't mind haha. Must be fun to watch yourself on the TV screen hoho.
So wet! Everybody is wet! Y? bcoz we play 'water gun'! So fun. To be specific is water gun AND sprayer. U knw, the hair sprayer. Say it was for acting but they take and wet people =.=. It was fun anyway. Too bad my spectacles spoiled. =.= Must be the water gun fault >=[....

The 3 days didnt study. I was actually thinking that mayb acting wasnt that bad. Afterall we don't need to study ^^. Haiz boring school days is back and examinations are around the corner.
Big deal. What's worst i havent start studying. Wait, more exact, i study at the last minute. Oh well.

= Soaking Panda =

Oh yea. When the clothes is wet and is full of sweat, it stinks =.=. Gotta go change my clothes fast. The peoples around me are walking away!

*mental note to self= Dont play water gun!! *

= Panda Proud =

2008-08-28T16:21:00.001+08:00

Woohoo...Today at school celebrate 'Ambang Merdeka'. It's kind of nice because everyone is so happy ^^. Whole school also so patriotic haha. I also patritic. Well it's once a year so it's fine to break some rules haha. So fun. I really do like to celebrate merdeka because eveyone unite to celebrate. It's the time where everyone gather to celebrate.

Amazing right. Where other occasion does this kind of thing happen. It's a nice thing =]. I proudly present you the Malaysia flag that is standing above gloriously. I'm proud to be a Malaysian. Eventhough it's not 31st of august yet, i still go ahead and say ' Selamat menyambut Hari Merdeka!'

MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!

= Patriotic Panda =

= Panda Bye Time =

2008-08-25T16:05:00.002+08:00

Awwww....Sob Sob. How could olympic ends so fast. Actually it was really fast =.=. Geez! I still miss it,duh. Afterall olympics com only once every 4 year. Its a long long time to go. By that time i'll be old =.=. Ok anyway i never typed 2 posts on the same day. Kind of weird. Oh well this is a very short one.

Bye Bye Olympics!!

Hope everyone in the world has watch olympic and supported it throughout the few days!! Especially those that had supported MALAYSIA!! I thank you all for being so supportive (eventhough i'm not the athlete haha.) Anyway what i want to say is thank you Malaysian athletes and supporters!! We have done our best! Hope we can do better on the next olympic in LONDON!! 2012 WE WILL BE WAITING!!

=Olympic Panda=

= Panda Depressed =

2008-08-25T15:34:00.000+08:00

Gosh!! So angry!! Something is really not right. Tsk. Aaaaaargh!! Need to vent my anger. Hmm now that i think about it. I never wrote anything happy in this blog o_O. Or maybe i did? Ah~ humans' nature to only remember bad things and not happy things i guess. Ah well no mood to talk about it anyway. Lets say about how my performance was. Ok, it's like this.

My class was assigned by the history teachers to every mornin each different pair have to present a dialogue on our country's fighter or people that has give something to our country. I and my partner chose to talk about the late Dato' Onn Jafaar. He was a great person that has fight to improve our country. His son was the third prime minister Dato' Tun Hussein Onn. Ok, so i worried about this presentation for a bout one week only to realise that it wasn't so scary but still it was kind of scary =.= (ok, i'm blabbing now) Anyway it was a good experience. Actually i was very scared in the beginning and need my partner to hold the microphone on my behalf afraid that it might fall or crush due to my excessive power grabbing it. Gradually, i calmed down and did it fine. ( Well, not like anyone did pay any attention. Eventhought in the hall, there are at least 600++ people. Afterall they are still in the holiday mood.) To say the truth it was actually quite fun haha.

Oh, that ends my journal for today. Not many interesting tales, eh. Well i guess a bit of truth. Oh yea, i finally finished the novel P.S I love you by Cecelia Ahern. It was quite good. Yea kind of funny to me. Oh yea thats all. Haha. And the famous saying, wahaha, 'Panda says goodbye. We shall meet again'

= Depress Panda =

=Panda's Fall=

2008-08-22T12:46:00.000+08:00

Sigh. I'm so so so troubled. None other than the homeworks T_T. It's the worst thing ever. Without it i think i can be more relaxed. I want to read story books, i have to watch out for the time. I want to blog i have to watch out for the time. I want to watch movies, i have to watch out for the time.

So practically what i'm trying to say is, everything in this world revolves around time. What they say time is precious is totally true. Eventhough it is, it somehow feels that if the time is supposed to be slower it's faster. When it's suppose to be slower, it's faster. Or is it just human's mind? When the time comes something happen. Isn't time terrifying?

Tsk! So what am i suppose to do? 24 hours doesnt seem to be satisfying. Time is too short. If one day is 48 hours, would it feel like this too? Or is it humans are too greedy? Nothing is ever enough. Mere influence could make us stray from our path. Humans are weak? But, we are capable of many things. Such as? So much.

There is this one movie that made me realise that humans are greedy. They always want power, money, fame, and what more to come? Just of this rubbish humans could be so cruel. I just dont understand. Why we cant live united? I always think, 'If all people were to be kind, rational, understanding and live helping others. Wouldn't this world be more peaceful without people living in fear? That is why humans are powerful. But just that some of them doesnt use it the right way.

I hope when i grow up i would a better person. I hope to change the world even thought it's only a small part of it. Lets together we change the world to be a better place.

- Confuse Panda -

=Panda's 2nd post=

2008-08-19T11:20:00.000+08:00

Yo!! Panda's back!! A round of applause!! (uh....kinda self-praiser. Ignore the fact i am. LOL) Hmm, i guess i'm kinda excited about this whole blog thingy. Usuallly i dont really like blogs because if i were to make one sure people will read it. What i mean is, it's fine if a person i dont recognise reads it because that person doesnt even know me. Why bother right? Too bad if the people i know reads it they will.......how to say? Uh....just plain weird. Well, i guess this blog wont live long considering that i'm not the type that will always blog or more like most of the time in my life i spend it by playing or sleeping. I think i'm a bit too carefree, dont u think so? Hmm, maybe i should compose a poem, right here this moment. Will i be able to do it? I'll try. What's the tittle? The main point?

Ahem, Panda's 1st poem, pay attention!!

Splashing of the ocean waves,
Melody of the rain pouring,
What is my music?
My guiding words.

Far away,
Somewhere in the world,
Where is my guiding words?
My life purpose.

Stay away,
Get away, useless words,
What i need?
Nothing but a melody.

Sweat.....What's that suppose to be? Ah, well kinda random lol. Just feel like i have to write something. Maybe if you try finding the meanings behind, you'll be able to ^^..... Oh, time to go. Bye Panda FC. Wahaha. Oh my, i remember something.

Kindness everywhere,
Whether you chooses to be or not to be,
Kindness is accepted,
Act of kindness?
Learn it,
Apply it,
What is?
Think in other people's shoe,
Speak carefully,
How to?
Remember,
One simple quote,
Kindness is unity, a peaceful world start with an act of kindness.

Oh!! Amazing!! How is that? Better right? Oh well anything. Panda says goodbye!!

- Half sad, half happy Panda-

=Panda's Nightmare=

2008-08-18T17:47:00.000+08:00

Yaho!! Success!! First blog EVER!! Ok. On friday i made this blog so i'll start on friday:

On Friday,

Something frustrating happened today. Geh! Got a member meeting. So i attend it of course. Well, not that i can choose not to attend i'm a noobie!! Havta attend i'm obliged to. So i attended. My gosh!! On the 1st ever noobie's meeting we are scolded. What is that?! Those so called SENIORS which is only a year older than us said 'Those JUNIORS when they see SENIORS never greet them'. Heck to me does greeting matter? It's just a greeting. Then the president scolded the JUNIORS. Sigh. Then an hour which seemed like an eternity ended. Sigh of relieve. Ok fine then later i have computer classes. Then, i went to eat at the canteen. That was the worse moment of that day. The so called SENIORS came then they walk pass. I wasnt sure what i was suppose to do. So i just stared at them. Then one of them said something out loud 'Next time if those JUNIORS dont greet the SENIORS then they are better off to be fired(is it fired?)' Eventhough she never say it straight to my face, i still feel that it was directed to me. Well, say that i'm just too sensitive but still i dont like it. Does greeting even matter? It might be satisfying when i'm SENIOR but still i dont blame them but still........My gosh!! i dont know how to write already. Thats all!! Yaho!!

- Unhappy Panda -

On Saturday,

Bored!! Today holiday start so happy!! Homeworks ruin my fun!! I thought it would be a wonderful holiday but the teachers made it a nightmare. So much homeworks!! It's piling up and waiting for me saying ' Gonna haunt you, hohoho' . No i was too imaginative it wasnt like that lol. Trying to make it more dramatic. And so, i pass the day like nothing happened trying to erase the homeworks from my mind. So basically, i slept late and wake up late. But oh on saturday night we went dinner with my family members. So happy celebrate birthday well not mine but still fun. SO much cakes!! HAHA!! Then that night watch olympics until late night. So fun too!! Totall forget everything on friday. Yay!!

- Blissful Panda -

On Sunday,

Yesterday slept late but have a good night sleep too. How rare for me to wake up and have breakfast with my parents. I mean totally RARE!! What tempted me to go out and eat was the say after breakfast we are gonna go shopping!! yay!! Bought lots of stuff!! Everybody also happy!! So i also happy!! But a bit dissapointed cause i wasnt able to buy my anime and comics but still it was fine. It was also RARE that we have time to go out together. So nice once a while it was fun. And so went home happily around evening. Then, watch chinese drama together. The drama so emo. Too emo and very nice!! I want more!! Havta calm down panda. Ok, and so took a nap till 9.00pm then wake up watch Lee Chong Wei match. So sad!!!! He lost!! Those China people were like 'Lin Dan Jia You!!' Well, to be honest it was quite noisy. I was like omg Chong Wei you can do it!! Still, he lost. Well, he did his best. He lost his confidence when he didnt get support. I only saw a row of malaysian supporters behind. Nvm i believe MALAYSIA BOLEH!!

- MALAYSIA BOLEH Panda-

That marks the end of my journal or diary. Whatever it is, still it's not long (was hoping it to be a little longer) Oh well, nvm. Thx and Bye!! May we meet on the next post!! *wave*

- Contented Panda-